Failure

You will fail. That's a fact that you can never change.

Up for another fact?

Failure is an event, never a person.

Thank you Craig Groeschel

Offering

Take this offering that I bring

Humbly I fall on my knees

To proclaim Your everything

My life's nothing without You

Take my hand and lead me through

You are my sustaining love

I was reminded by Rev. Edmund Chan that when we pray to ask God to change us, are we only willing to let God change our flaws? How about our strengths? 

If God were to take away your flaws and change your character, PRAISE GOD! If God were to say 'Hey, I'm not only gonna change your flaws, I'm gonna change your strengths as well". Would you be willing to give that up and let God change you? It's easy to say 'OF COURSE! Cause I know God will give me new strengths and I know He always wants the best for me'. True, no doubt about that.. I think the hardest part is surrendering it.

Are you willing to surrender your gifts and talents, even your dreams to God if God ask you to? 

Pastor Noah told me that God might destroy our dreams and He'll raise those dreams again so that our dreams would be His dreams for us as well. 

Learning to surrender :)

Show up

Sometimes we're so focus on the people who matters a lot to us and neglected the people who cares and loves us humbly and quietly around us. From time to time, I have that blind spot as well.

Looking back the "downs" in life, God opened up my eyes to see people who are willing to stay and be faithful in friendships. Sometimes a simple act of just sitting beside a person without any questions asked would be more than enough, actions would mean so much more than words. 

Woody Allen quoted "80% of success is showing up". Touching people's lives and hearts is a success, in fact it's more than success. Sometimes I wish you would show up and I hope I have that chance to show up in your life as well. 

I cherish our friendship, that's the only reason why I care.

 When you really matter to someone, that person will always make time for you. No excuses, no lies, and no broken promises. 
- Tumblr -

Show up. If you really care a person. 

I know every mile, will be worth my while

I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Will be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be


I can be there some day
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know every mile
Will be worth my while
I will go most anywhere
To feel like I belong


Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though that road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through


And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart


Like a shooting star
I will go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
Till I find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...


I will search the world
I will face its harms
Till I find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms

“You won't realize the distance you've walked until you take a look around and realize how far you've been.”

- Anonymous -

that's when I look at You

Changes are good. Yet scary sometimes.
To really think of where I'll be next year really gave me a weird feeling. If you were to ask me last year, the thought of leaving KK excites me. Literally, excites me. Ask me again now I can give you a whole new answer.

At the beginning of this year, the thought of leaving KK aint that scary cause a great great friend and I planned to go to the same Uni together. Plan to live together and all that. But people change. Be amazed by how time can prove a person's passion, for the better or for the worse. But i guess it's okay, one thing I've learn is that God will provide the right people at the right timing for the right reason in your life. Does it hurt when things didn't turn out it should be, yea of course. But i guess that's where we learn to really trust God more and more. 

It's November now, 2011 is gonna end very very soon. My exam is gonna end very soon as well, just 2 more papers to go. I had accounts Paper 1 today. As i was praying before I start my paper, i thought 'if i were to get a result that would disappoint me, will i still praise and love God as much, compare to a flying colours result?'. Somehow it challenged my faith, as if God was asking me that question. God promised that He has plans for us, plans to prosper and not harm us, plans to give us hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). If i were to get a C or a D in any of my subjects, but if it will still help me to get into a Uni that i want, will i be contented and praise God? 

Will I still love God if my results ain't what i expected?

Will I still love God if He would show me people that i love dearly were to leave again?

Will I still love God if things doesn't go my way?

Will I still love God...if I'm not doing the things i do today?
Will I still love God...if i were to lose everything that is valuable to me?

Things change. People change. It sucks.
But God's love endures forever. 

And I guess that's all what it matters.

"When I Look At You"
Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
'Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I
I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I
I look at you

When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that prove to me
All I need, every breath that I breathe
Don't ya know, you're beautiful

Inspiration

Yea. I don't mind having more of that.

Through Christ

When the darkness tries

Tries to hide my way
Your word is the light
That guides my faith
I will trust in You
I will trust in You

When my heart is weak
And I've lost my way
I will lift up my eyes
And choose to say
I will trust in You
I will trust in You

I can do all things through Christ
I can move a mountain
If You are the strength of my life
I can do all things through Christ
If you are the strength of my life

In Your presence I find
Strength renewed
I found courage to stand
And a hope that is new
I will trust in You
I will trust in You

Whenever trials come my way
I will worship You always
Forever trust in Your unfailing love
Whenever there is doubt or shame
I still hear Your voice within
Forever trust in Your unfailing love

Push the tempo!

Yes, i might blog everyday now. Cause I wont be logging in my facebook, so my blogspot is gonna replace my facebook for this period of time untill i finish my exam i guess haha.

So yeap, been staying home a lot to study. Yea, but not really pushing myself hard enough. Haven't reach my limit :/ Need to work harder :/

Life has been revolving around endless of tuitions and studying lately. Can you believe it? I have tuition for the SAME freaking subject for FOUR freaking times in ONE freaking week man O.O But yea, what can i ask for when my exam's in 17 days time? no wait, it's 16 now -.-

I'm really worry about my exam :/ there's so much to study, and studying one night before my exam aint gonna help, dang i miss high school -.- i know i can't compare to high school, cause in each level of life, it has it's own difficulties and obstacles. Maybe in future when I'm in Uni already, i'll blog saying 'dang i miss IS' haha :D so yeap! (Yes I'm trying very hard to stay positive)

still alive here.


push the tempo! - push the tempo! - push the tempo! 

Little things in life

There are so many little things in life that is worth to just stop. and celebrate.. A lot of times i let my own expectations or desires to blind me from celebrating greater and better things that are happening around me. People breaking out of their comfort zone; A shy person starting to talk more about his/her thoughts; A person learned to give more and put his talent/time on the table to be shared; A person willing to offer help. Those are little yet major great things happening, yet i just didn't stop and look into that. Catching up deadlines, seeing what can be better, pointing out the worst before it happens (or won't happen at all), when i can choose to celebrate every awesome first step people took. 

Stop. And celebrate. Little yet major great things in life :)

Taught and showed me something new by a brilliant girl

Talked to Sherah on the phone this afternoon. It started kinda awkward cause we had a tiny small conflict from the previous phone call, but yea she knows what to say and what to do to a hard-headed best friend like me :D i do not know exactly how she does it O.O seriously dude, i DO NOT know. The next thing we know, we're already just laughing our heads off. Dang! she's good. she's dang good alright.


anyway, great to know that she's doing great with studies. Really really am happy and proud of her. She's very focus on her studies, which is a good thing. Something i need to learn from her, well at least she forced me to learn that from her XD 


Shared some of my dreams with her, and she shared hers too. Even though we went through that a number of times. But I guess that's how best friends talk? You know that they're still gonna listen, still as excited even the topics we talk are the same over and over again. And if I'm lucky, we'll laugh about our dreams, not discouraging, but just making our dreams sounds more....fun with the huge mixture of laughter haha. of course, knowing that we're still gonna reach it and we still have each other's full support. I laughed till i was gasping for air during that phone call. Literally, gasping for air. 


We've been friends since primary 3. Then we got closer when we were primary 5. Then form 3 came and BAM!! talking about best friends :D yea we argued, we had conflicts, we had disagreements, there were tears, anger, full blast anger, overload anger XD then of course there were understandings, learning, tolerating, forgiving, giving, taking, laughter, full blast laughter, overload laughter :)


And the funny thing is, there are times where i do not understand myself, but she does. I mean seriously? how can another person understand you more than yourself?! O.O but yea, she's just that awesome :) 


I do miss high school. a lot. I'm doing good in IS, but yes i had a very great 5 years in Lok Yuk. Friends i met there are just pure awesome. After graduation, we still meet up, we still chat from time to time. But there's this different feeling. Awkwardness? Not so sure is that the right word. I guess is because we all have our own life, we all have other people or places that we belong to. So maybe the topics we talk aren't ALWAYS 'clicking'? And it's okay :) who says we need to have that to prove how strong a friendship is? People come and go. People move on. But Sherah taught and showed me something new in terms of friendship, and that is we still can live the moment, we still can go our separate ways, we still can meet new people, yet knowing we're still best friends. And even better, she showed me that friendships aren't based on how often we text, how often we meet up, how often we talk, how much time we spend. It's the moment where we still can laugh and talk so naturally after not contacting each other for ages. I cherish this friendship a lot, and I'm grateful to have my best friend :)

New York

NEW YORK!
New York has always been the place I wanna be in since I was young. Well I'm still young :P i mean youngER XD
So why New York? I have no idea. I remember my brother told me before, "The City that Never Sleeps" - New York. Somehow that attracts me. At the same time, I know it sounds messy, hectic, crowded, but still it didn't take away the attraction of New York away from me. Just by watching Step Up 3 (for the countless times), the lights, the buildings, the people that strives so hard to achieve their dreams, no doubt that really made me wanna go to New York. Maybe because KK isn't a big city (and sometimes I thank God for that), but I'm really curious how is it to be like in New York. Where everything is just so fast, where everyone is striving to be outstanding (check out American's Next Top Model, or the audition for American Idol, or even Project Runway). To think of striving all the time when you're in New York, sure it sounds stressful and life is just about work, but I believe that it still comes down to one's belief and faith to God.

Maybe I haven't been to KL (to live there I mean) and I still didn't have the taste of a life in a big city, that's why I'm still as excited to really have my foot on New York. I know things are not as easy in a big city, and I know people are not as innocent haha. But yea, going to New York and really have a life there (maybe even just one month or for further studies) has always been one of dreams :) I believe New York is an eye-opener for me to the big world.

However, I'm still grateful that I'm in KK. I'm grateful for the people around me, shaping me, guiding me, whom I hold them dearly in my heart. And to think of leaving these wonderful people next year just kills me. But I believe God has plans for each and everyone of us. Why am i saying this again? O.O YES! GRATEFUL TO BE A KK-ian. But I would really enjoy being out of KK for a while, and see how life is out of KK :) Still, KK owns my heart. A lot of people left KK to achieve greater and better things, which is good, but isn't it more awesome if we could bring those greater and better things back to our home? I don't have big dreams..YET. But i know for sure, going to New York is one of dreams, getting to an Uni is one of my dreams, coming back to KK is what I HOPE the strongest dream I can have. For now the dream of coming back to KK is not as strong as going to New York and to an Uni, but I'll pray that God will change my heart and really live up to that dream. Cause at the end of the day, I'm still a proud, original, DSC-born, sang nyuek mien-fan, lah bah-talker, boleh bha kalau kau / can bha if you-user, awesome KK-ian ;)

God, You did it again :)

<sup>Yesterday i just found out that i need to resit for my Malaysian Studies paper.
First reaction, WHUT DUH CRAP?  SAY WHUT O.O 
Looking through the list and knowing that a number of my friends cheated and passed their paper really made feel that THIS IS SO NOT FAIR MAN! 
Then as I went to see Mr. Lee to tell him I wanna resit, there and then only we found that there might be a mistake with my results. So i have one small chance of passing my paper :D
So this morning i went to see Mr. Lee again. I can feel my heart pumping as if it's gonna jump right out of my chest man when Mr. Lee checked his e-mail from my lecturer. and whualah! God, You did it again. I passed :)
 
Last night, Psalm 37 just ministered to me when I was feeling quite down and worried of my results. Again, our God is an amazing God. :)
Be bless !



1</sup> Do not fret because of those who are evil
   or be envious of those who do wrong;
² for like the grass they will soon wither,
   like green plants they will soon die away.
 ³ Trust in the LORD and do good;
   dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
⁴ Take delight in the LORD,
   and he will give you the desires of your heart.
 ⁵ Commit your way to the LORD;
   trust in him and he will do this:
⁶ He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
   your vindication like the noonday sun.
 ⁷ Be still before the LORD
   and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
   when they carry out their wicked schemes.
 ⁸ Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
   do not fret—it leads only to evil.

When you fall, fall gracefully. Fall forward.

Keep pushing forward. Stay focus.