that's when I look at You

Changes are good. Yet scary sometimes.
To really think of where I'll be next year really gave me a weird feeling. If you were to ask me last year, the thought of leaving KK excites me. Literally, excites me. Ask me again now I can give you a whole new answer.

At the beginning of this year, the thought of leaving KK aint that scary cause a great great friend and I planned to go to the same Uni together. Plan to live together and all that. But people change. Be amazed by how time can prove a person's passion, for the better or for the worse. But i guess it's okay, one thing I've learn is that God will provide the right people at the right timing for the right reason in your life. Does it hurt when things didn't turn out it should be, yea of course. But i guess that's where we learn to really trust God more and more. 

It's November now, 2011 is gonna end very very soon. My exam is gonna end very soon as well, just 2 more papers to go. I had accounts Paper 1 today. As i was praying before I start my paper, i thought 'if i were to get a result that would disappoint me, will i still praise and love God as much, compare to a flying colours result?'. Somehow it challenged my faith, as if God was asking me that question. God promised that He has plans for us, plans to prosper and not harm us, plans to give us hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). If i were to get a C or a D in any of my subjects, but if it will still help me to get into a Uni that i want, will i be contented and praise God? 

Will I still love God if my results ain't what i expected?

Will I still love God if He would show me people that i love dearly were to leave again?

Will I still love God if things doesn't go my way?

Will I still love God...if I'm not doing the things i do today?
Will I still love God...if i were to lose everything that is valuable to me?

Things change. People change. It sucks.
But God's love endures forever. 

And I guess that's all what it matters.

"When I Look At You"
Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
'Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I
I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I
I look at you

When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that prove to me
All I need, every breath that I breathe
Don't ya know, you're beautiful