Life Chapters

Failure

2011-12-15T15:41:00.001+09:00

You will fail. That's a fact that you can never change.

Up for another fact?

Failure is an event, never a person.

Thank you Craig Groeschel

Offering

2011-11-20T16:43:00.001+09:00

Take this offering that I bring

Humbly I fall on my knees

To proclaim Your everything

My life's nothing without You

Take my hand and lead me through

You are my sustaining love

I was reminded by Rev. Edmund Chan that when we pray to ask God to change us, are we only willing to let God change our flaws? How about our strengths?

If God were to take away your flaws and change your character, PRAISE GOD! If God were to say 'Hey, I'm not only gonna change your flaws, I'm gonna change your strengths as well". Would you be willing to give that up and let God change you? It's easy to say 'OF COURSE! Cause I know God will give me new strengths and I know He always wants the best for me'. True, no doubt about that.. I think the hardest part is surrendering it.

Are you willing to surrender your gifts and talents, even your dreams to God if God ask you to?

Pastor Noah told me that God might destroy our dreams and He'll raise those dreams again so that our dreams would be His dreams for us as well.

Learning to surrender :)

Show up

2011-11-09T21:21:00.001+09:00

Sometimes we're so focus on the people who matters a lot to us and neglected the people who cares and loves us humbly and quietly around us. From time to time, I have that blind spot as well.

Looking back the "downs" in life, God opened up my eyes to see people who are willing to stay and be faithful in friendships. Sometimes a simple act of just sitting beside a person without any questions asked would be more than enough, actions would mean so much more than words.

Woody Allen quoted "80% of success is showing up". Touching people's lives and hearts is a success, in fact it's more than success. Sometimes I wish you would show up and I hope I have that chance to show up in your life as well.

I cherish our friendship, that's the only reason why I care.

When you really matter to someone, that person will always make time for you. No excuses, no lies, and no broken promises.
- Tumblr -

Show up. If you really care a person.

I know every mile, will be worth my while

2011-11-09T03:05:00.001+09:00

I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Will be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be

I can be there some day
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know every mile
Will be worth my while
I will go most anywhere
To feel like I belong

Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though that road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star
I will go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
Till I find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

I will search the world
I will face its harms
Till I find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms

“You won't realize the distance you've walked until you take a look around and realize how far you've been.”

- Anonymous -

that's when I look at You

2011-11-03T19:15:00.000+09:00

Changes are good. Yet scary sometimes.
To really think of where I'll be next year really gave me a weird feeling. If you were to ask me last year, the thought of leaving KK excites me. Literally, excites me. Ask me again now I can give you a whole new answer.

At the beginning of this year, the thought of leaving KK aint that scary cause a great great friend and I planned to go to the same Uni together. Plan to live together and all that. But people change. Be amazed by how time can prove a person's passion, for the better or for the worse. But i guess it's okay, one thing I've learn is that God will provide the right people at the right timing for the right reason in your life. Does it hurt when things didn't turn out it should be, yea of course. But i guess that's where we learn to really trust God more and more.

It's November now, 2011 is gonna end very very soon. My exam is gonna end very soon as well, just 2 more papers to go. I had accounts Paper 1 today. As i was praying before I start my paper, i thought 'if i were to get a result that would disappoint me, will i still praise and love God as much, compare to a flying colours result?'. Somehow it challenged my faith, as if God was asking me that question. God promised that He has plans for us, plans to prosper and not harm us, plans to give us hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). If i were to get a C or a D in any of my subjects, but if it will still help me to get into a Uni that i want, will i be contented and praise God?

Will I still love God if my results ain't what i expected?

Will I still love God if He would show me people that i love dearly were to leave again?

Will I still love God if things doesn't go my way?

Will I still love God...if I'm not doing the things i do today?
Will I still love God...if i were to lose everything that is valuable to me?

Things change. People change. It sucks.
But God's love endures forever.

And I guess that's all what it matters.

"When I Look At You"
Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
'Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I
I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I
I look at you

When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that prove to me
All I need, every breath that I breathe
Don't ya know, you're beautiful

Inspiration

2011-10-31T22:00:00.002+09:00

Yea. I don't mind having more of that.

Through Christ

2011-10-27T20:25:00.001+09:00

When the darkness tries

Tries to hide my way
Your word is the light
That guides my faith
I will trust in You
I will trust in You

When my heart is weak
And I've lost my way
I will lift up my eyes
And choose to say
I will trust in You
I will trust in You

I can do all things through Christ
I can move a mountain
If You are the strength of my life
I can do all things through Christ
If you are the strength of my life

In Your presence I find
Strength renewed
I found courage to stand
And a hope that is new
I will trust in You
I will trust in You

Whenever trials come my way
I will worship You always
Forever trust in Your unfailing love
Whenever there is doubt or shame
I still hear Your voice within
Forever trust in Your unfailing love

Push the tempo!

2011-10-12T01:17:00.001+09:00

Yes, i might blog everyday now. Cause I wont be logging in my facebook, so my blogspot is gonna replace my facebook for this period of time untill i finish my exam i guess haha.

So yeap, been staying home a lot to study. Yea, but not really pushing myself hard enough. Haven't reach my limit :/ Need to work harder :/

Life has been revolving around endless of tuitions and studying lately. Can you believe it? I have tuition for the SAME freaking subject for FOUR freaking times in ONE freaking week man O.O But yea, what can i ask for when my exam's in 17 days time? no wait, it's 16 now -.-

I'm really worry about my exam :/ there's so much to study, and studying one night before my exam aint gonna help, dang i miss high school -.- i know i can't compare to high school, cause in each level of life, it has it's own difficulties and obstacles. Maybe in future when I'm in Uni already, i'll blog saying 'dang i miss IS' haha :D so yeap! (Yes I'm trying very hard to stay positive)

still alive here.

push the tempo! - push the tempo! - push the tempo!

Little things in life

2011-10-11T01:35:00.000+09:00

There are so many little things in life that is worth to just stop. and celebrate.. A lot of times i let my own expectations or desires to blind me from celebrating greater and better things that are happening around me. People breaking out of their comfort zone; A shy person starting to talk more about his/her thoughts; A person learned to give more and put his talent/time on the table to be shared; A person willing to offer help. Those are little yet major great things happening, yet i just didn't stop and look into that. Catching up deadlines, seeing what can be better, pointing out the worst before it happens (or won't happen at all), when i can choose to celebrate every awesome first step people took.

Stop. And celebrate. Little yet major great things in life :)

Taught and showed me something new by a brilliant girl

2011-10-05T22:20:00.000+09:00

Talked to Sherah on the phone this afternoon. It started kinda awkward cause we had a tiny small conflict from the previous phone call, but yea she knows what to say and what to do to a hard-headed best friend like me :D i do not know exactly how she does it O.O seriously dude, i DO NOT know. The next thing we know, we're already just laughing our heads off. Dang! she's good. she's dang good alright.

anyway, great to know that she's doing great with studies. Really really am happy and proud of her. She's very focus on her studies, which is a good thing. Something i need to learn from her, well at least she forced me to learn that from her XD

Shared some of my dreams with her, and she shared hers too. Even though we went through that a number of times. But I guess that's how best friends talk? You know that they're still gonna listen, still as excited even the topics we talk are the same over and over again. And if I'm lucky, we'll laugh about our dreams, not discouraging, but just making our dreams sounds more....fun with the huge mixture of laughter haha. of course, knowing that we're still gonna reach it and we still have each other's full support. I laughed till i was gasping for air during that phone call. Literally, gasping for air.

We've been friends since primary 3. Then we got closer when we were primary 5. Then form 3 came and BAM!! talking about best friends :D yea we argued, we had conflicts, we had disagreements, there were tears, anger, full blast anger, overload anger XD then of course there were understandings, learning, tolerating, forgiving, giving, taking, laughter, full blast laughter, overload laughter :)

And the funny thing is, there are times where i do not understand myself, but she does. I mean seriously? how can another person understand you more than yourself?! O.O but yea, she's just that awesome :)

I do miss high school. a lot. I'm doing good in IS, but yes i had a very great 5 years in Lok Yuk. Friends i met there are just pure awesome. After graduation, we still meet up, we still chat from time to time. But there's this different feeling. Awkwardness? Not so sure is that the right word. I guess is because we all have our own life, we all have other people or places that we belong to. So maybe the topics we talk aren't ALWAYS 'clicking'? And it's okay :) who says we need to have that to prove how strong a friendship is? People come and go. People move on. But Sherah taught and showed me something new in terms of friendship, and that is we still can live the moment, we still can go our separate ways, we still can meet new people, yet knowing we're still best friends. And even better, she showed me that friendships aren't based on how often we text, how often we meet up, how often we talk, how much time we spend. It's the moment where we still can laugh and talk so naturally after not contacting each other for ages. I cherish this friendship a lot, and I'm grateful to have my best friend :)

New York

2011-09-26T13:19:00.001+09:00

NEW YORK!
New York has always been the place I wanna be in since I was young. Well I'm still young :P i mean youngER XD
So why New York? I have no idea. I remember my brother told me before, "The City that Never Sleeps" - New York. Somehow that attracts me. At the same time, I know it sounds messy, hectic, crowded, but still it didn't take away the attraction of New York away from me. Just by watching Step Up 3 (for the countless times), the lights, the buildings, the people that strives so hard to achieve their dreams, no doubt that really made me wanna go to New York. Maybe because KK isn't a big city (and sometimes I thank God for that), but I'm really curious how is it to be like in New York. Where everything is just so fast, where everyone is striving to be outstanding (check out American's Next Top Model, or the audition for American Idol, or even Project Runway). To think of striving all the time when you're in New York, sure it sounds stressful and life is just about work, but I believe that it still comes down to one's belief and faith to God.

Maybe I haven't been to KL (to live there I mean) and I still didn't have the taste of a life in a big city, that's why I'm still as excited to really have my foot on New York. I know things are not as easy in a big city, and I know people are not as innocent haha. But yea, going to New York and really have a life there (maybe even just one month or for further studies) has always been one of dreams :) I believe New York is an eye-opener for me to the big world.

However, I'm still grateful that I'm in KK. I'm grateful for the people around me, shaping me, guiding me, whom I hold them dearly in my heart. And to think of leaving these wonderful people next year just kills me. But I believe God has plans for each and everyone of us. Why am i saying this again? O.O YES! GRATEFUL TO BE A KK-ian. But I would really enjoy being out of KK for a while, and see how life is out of KK :) Still, KK owns my heart. A lot of people left KK to achieve greater and better things, which is good, but isn't it more awesome if we could bring those greater and better things back to our home? I don't have big dreams..YET. But i know for sure, going to New York is one of dreams, getting to an Uni is one of my dreams, coming back to KK is what I HOPE the strongest dream I can have. For now the dream of coming back to KK is not as strong as going to New York and to an Uni, but I'll pray that God will change my heart and really live up to that dream. Cause at the end of the day, I'm still a proud, original, DSC-born, sang nyuek mien-fan, lah bah-talker, boleh bha kalau kau / can bha if you-user, awesome KK-ian ;)

God, You did it again :)

2011-09-07T13:24:00.001+09:00

^{Yesterday i just found out that i need to resit for my Malaysian Studies paper.
First reaction, WHUT DUH CRAP? SAY WHUT O.O}
^{Looking through the list and knowing that a number of my friends cheated and passed their paper really made feel that THIS IS SO NOT FAIR MAN!}
^{Then as I went to see Mr. Lee to tell him I wanna resit, there and then only we found that there might be a mistake with my results. So i have one small chance of passing my paper :D
So this morning i went to see Mr. Lee again. I can feel my heart pumping as if it's gonna jump right out of my chest man when Mr. Lee checked his e-mail from my lecturer. and whualah! God, You did it again. I passed :)}
^{Last night, Psalm 37 just ministered to me when I was feeling quite down and worried of my results. Again, our God is an amazing God. :)
Be bless !}

¹ Do not fret because of those who are evil
   or be envious of those who do wrong;
² for like the grass they will soon wither,
   like green plants they will soon die away.
³ Trust in the LORD and do good;
   dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
⁴ Take delight in the LORD,
   and he will give you the desires of your heart.
⁵ Commit your way to the LORD;
   trust in him and he will do this:
⁶ He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
   your vindication like the noonday sun.
⁷ Be still before the LORD
   and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
   when they carry out their wicked schemes.
⁸ Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
   do not fret—it leads only to evil.

When you fall, fall gracefully. Fall forward.

2011-07-14T14:47:00.002+09:00

Keep pushing forward. Stay focus.

Hang in there. Just hang in there.

2011-04-04T19:06:00.003+09:00

you can do this.

I'll be lying if I never thought of giving up

2011-03-01T15:26:00.003+09:00

so yeap, I'll be a liar if I never thought of giving up.

Stop finding excuses Alicia. No time is just an excuse. You need to learn to focus.

I love being busy, but I miss being lazy as well. I don't even have time to take driving lessons O.O And i wanna drive...SO BADLY! Fuuuuuhhhhh, breath

2011-01-10T21:14:00.002+09:00

Ugly war

2010-12-06T15:49:00.002+09:00

It's gonna be an ugly war.
Having Business this Wed and then Accounts on Thurs.
ugly i tell ya.
hopefully i'll learn to love Business when I'm I.S

can't wait

2010-11-26T22:10:00.002+09:00

HE'S COMING BAAAACCCKKKK

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
:) :) :) :)

Breath. Just breath.

2010-11-21T17:43:00.005+09:00

I think the hardest thing to do before SPM is not making sure i prepare well ENOUGH to sit for my papers.

It's
BREATHING
that i find the hardest thing to do.

Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.
Alicia oh Alicia.
Just CHILL a little wouldcha!

oasdhaeosiodjvkl;awhipoh cklHWvhaeokhi8

2010-11-19T18:15:00.003+09:00

Nerve-racking.

I even have stomach aches when I open my books O.O"
Yesh, I do get stomach aches when I'm EXTREMELY nervous

i am at my utmost stress right now
no doubt about it

some guy/girl said this,
if you wanna get good results for any of your subject,
first you need to learn to LOVE the subject

okay
i love you spm
i love you spm
i love you spm
i love you spm
i love you spm
i love you spm
i love you spm

this.
is.
not.
working.
AT.
ALL.

i love you spm i love you spm i loveyou spm i loveyoj siyfiouapskjcfiaflhdalkhv
dafvhalvhalhv anlahhvoahih

gahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Gawd i miss ya blogspot

2010-11-18T18:07:00.002+09:00

Okay first of all,
I MISS YOU SO MUCH BLOGSPOT
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:D
Guess I just can't live without you after all haha.
Yeaps been using tumblr a lot
poor blogspottieee

Hmm i think blogspot is better than tumblr
maybe i got used to it laahh.
wait laahh tumblr
need time to love you more than my first love :D

Same as Gar,
blogspot will be the place where I'll blog about stuffs that i don't want a lot of ppl to know lah
and as for tumblr,
more on sharing hehe :)

So yeap,
just dropping by and do some catching up with ma first love
haha
You know i still love you right blogspot?
owh yesh i do :)

tumblr

2010-11-10T10:41:00.003+09:00

Tada!

www.alicia0715.tumblr.com

Don't judge it yet aye

not used to it yet :D

will update more :)

I'm sorry blogspot

guess it's the end between us

don't cry

you should be happy for me

cause I'm moving on

all the best in life dearest blogspot

hahaha

Getting Big Dad's permission

2010-11-09T17:32:00.005+09:00

I wanna go KL so badly right now

Hua Hua ajak me go KL next year's January

Lex and Pauline going with Hua Hua lagi

Hua Hua, Pauline and I will be having classes ady that time but they'll be skipping school :D

Then Fran lagi planning to go KL

Lee Jun lagiiii

okay lah nvm they go for fun

i won't be going cause of I.S ==

okayyy nvmmmm ==

missing all the fun with Hua, Pau and Lex

finneeeeee ==

BAM!

Sherah got her air ticket to KL ady

T.T
she'll be leaving on the 15th of April for

SHOW'S

WORLD

TOUR

CONCERT

yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

all Sherah left is to get Show's concert ticket man

T.T

Daddddyyyyyyyyyy~~ T.T

I'm trying NOT to ask my dad's permission right now

don't wanna take that risk

if dad says NO,

it means NO

then if it's a NO,

I'll only be thinking about ways to persuade my dad instead of focussing for SPM haha

yeaps, I think I made a good choice? haha

so yea,

TAHAN DULU ALICIA CHONG!!

GAAAHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

still,

yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

please please please Dad

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE say YES

gonna pray so hard for Dad's permission

but if Big Daddy in Heaven say no,

then okaaayyy lahh

have nothing to say ady haha

Your will be done God !

ohh! Tumblrrrrrrrrr

I still don't have tumblr yet :D

but soon lah

very soon

need time to make it nice first

then I'll abandon poor blogspot haha

no thank you

2010-11-04T14:19:00.005+09:00

18 days to go
the LAST thing i want now is
ANY FORM
of
UNWANTED
interferences
distractions
disturbances

for emergencies ONLY,
you may dial
1800-dnt-call
that's
1800-368-2255

other than that, just leave a msg
And i'll get back to you after 20th of Dec.
so pls leave a msg after the beep.
BEEEEEEEEEPPP

I sayang my bro

2010-11-03T16:42:00.004+09:00

I AM READY FOR SPM
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I so wish I can say that =='''
but neah~ I can't.
YET :p

Called up my bro yesterday :)
yeap love talking to bro when i'm having some stress x)
gawd i do hope my bro really can come back at the end of Nov or early Dec
would be GREAT if he'll be around when i'm having my spm

yea anyway, talked on the phone with my bro
chit-chat and stuffs
bro was whispering throughout the whole conversation thou
cause he was at his school library haha
but he still can talk lah
I was SO(x infinity) glad that he can talk to me :)))

So yea got some advice from bro and everything as usual
was nice hehe
then when i wanted to hang up
he gave me an 'extra' advice

Bro : Moi giao ah! Oi ngiao tu ngiao sai ngi zang loi tuk ah. haha
which means
Don't cry ah! If you wanna cry, you finish with your crying first then only you continue to study. haha

It was funny when he said it
ya know, with the Hakka slang lagii xD!

me sayang my brother banyak banyak BANYAK man :)
what made me sayang him that much is maybe because he sayang me more than i do :p

and the crowd goes :
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

LOL :D

I mean yea,
after all, I am his one and only sister hehe
I think I'll be living in a life FULL of jealousy the moment bro say "I do"
hahahaha

screams part 2

2010-11-02T15:23:00.003+09:00

Last Sunday (wait, i mean this Sunday),
Mom and I were at the living room
I sat on the couch
Mom sat on dad's favourite armchair
Then it all started with an iPhone 4 advertisement

Me : Mum, can i get that?
Mum : *shook her head to the LEFT. RIGHT. LEFT. RIGHT in sloowwww mootionnn*
Me : uhhhh...if 7A 2B?
Mum : *shook her head*
Me : Straight also cannot?
Mum : *again with the LEFT. RIGHT. LEFT. RIGHT.*
Me : hmm...OHH!! KL lea???
Mum : That one anytime also can if we wanna visit gor gor
Me : hehehehehehhehehehe
*got up and sit in front of mom*
Me : Mummmyyyyyyy~~~~
Mum : Yeaa?
Me : You knowww kannnnn~~ next year 16th of April kannnnn~~
Mum : ah ha..yea? wait, 16th of April? what's with 16th of April?? what day is that?
Me : yeaaaa 16th of April kannnnnnn~ heh-heh-heh-heh :)))) Show's gonna have his concert at KL ooooooooo~..heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh :)))))
Mum : ohhhh~~ heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh
Me : yeaaaaa heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh
*and a lot a lot a lot of 'heh-heh-hehs' with me and my mum*
Mum : cannot~ cannot go alone
Me : No lahh~ going with Sherah and her sisters
Mum : *pauses* cannot~
Me : ohh! you come with me lah :)))
Mum : Ha???? I go Show's concert with you??? hahahaha
Me : hahahha! no la! you spend time with gor gor then i go with Sherah and her sisters lo :)))))))
Mum : *pauses* still a long time to go till April ~
Me : okok..we talk again about this after spm kay kay kay kay??
Mum : talk again when it's April
Me : Ha?? yerhhh later no ticket ady how?
Mum : good lo~ no need go heh-heh-heh :p
Me : yerrrhhhhhh~~
Mum : kay lah kay lah~ you go study first. after spm then only we talk about this again..

By the expressions of my mom's face and with the pauses here and there,
I stand a 70%? 75%? of chance to go to Show's concert?
lalalallalalalalalaa
gagagagagaggagagaga
kakakkakakakakakkaka

Next target :
DADDDDDYYYYYYYY~~~~~ i know you love me kannnnnnnn :ppp

heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh-heh
:))))))))))))
:]]]]]]]]]]]]
:pppppppp
:DDDDDD

Didn't talk to dad for almost a month o.O
i mean face-to-face conversation
since he's at Sandakan for almost ...wuad? 2? 3? weeks o.O

We Have Two Choices

2010-10-31T13:38:00.006+09:00

I called up my loyal friend just now - Google :)
Read loads of inspiring stories and passages.
This one inspired me lots.

WE HAVE TWO CHOICES

Jerry was the kind of guy you love to hate.

He was always in a good mood and always had something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"

He was a unique manager because he had several waiters who had followed him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"
Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, 'Jerry, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood.' I choose to be in a good mood.
Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it.
Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life."

"Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested.

"Yes, it is," Jerry said.
"Life is all about choices.
When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice.
You choose how you react to situations.
You choose how people will affect your mood.
You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood.
The bottom line: It's your choice how you live life."

I reflected on what Jerry said. Soon thereafter, I left the restaurant industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.

Several years later, I heard that Jerry did something you are never supposed to do in a restaurant business: he left the back door open one morning and was held up at gunpoint by three armed robbers. While trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him. Luckily, Jerry was found relatively quickly and rushed to the local trauma center.

After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body.

I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Wanna see my scars?"
I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place.
"The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door," Jerry replied. "Then, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live, or I could choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked.

Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the emergency room and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read, 'He's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked.

"Well, there was a big, burly nurse shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes,' I replied.
The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply.
I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!'
Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead.'"
Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully.
Attitude, after all, is everything.

Butterfly kisses

2010-10-26T18:45:00.003+09:00

Butterfly Kisses by Westlife everybody.
Round of applause~ Standing ovation~
I love this song.
especially when I can't sleep at night haha

original by Bob Carlisle.
Haven't check out Bob Carlisle's version yet :P

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven, and she's Daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life, oh but most of all

For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk beside the pony Daddy, it's my first ride"
"I know the cake looks funny Daddy, but I sure tried"
Oh with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right
To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today
She's looking like her mother, a little more everyday.
One part woman, the other part girl
To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great big world, but I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you Daddy, but if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

She'll change her name today, she'll make a promise, and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bed room just staring at her
She asks me what I'm thinking, and I said
"I'm not sure. I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl"
and she leaned over

Gave me butterfly kisses with her mother there
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk me down the aisle Daddy, it's just about time."
"Does my wedding dress look pretty Daddy? Daddy, don't cry."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right.
To deserve her hug every morning, and butterfly kisses,
A hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

screams

2010-10-21T17:26:00.006+09:00

OMGGGGGG
SHOW LUO IS COMING TO KL !!!!!!
*screams*

*screams*
*screams*

then *screams* some more!!

*SCREAMS*

Show mentioned that he'll come to Malaysia for his World Tour Concert
but Sherah and I was expecting it to be around Nov or Dec this year
yea bummer! spm season =='''

Then then then!
Sherah called me up last night and told me that it's gonna be on the

16th of April 2011

yes! yes! yes!
thank you God !

will persuade my parents GAO GAO man
especially Dad xD!
*got more hope bha if ask my dad lol*

Pls pls pls pls Daddy
PLEASEEEEE PLEASEEEEEEEEEE
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
PLEASE DADDY!!!!!!!!!

awkward-me-not

2010-10-20T14:10:00.004+09:00

As usual,
the whole class will sing the birthday song to the birthday girl/boy
I love my classmates :)
But this time,
we sang it in Korean cause Wen's like a Korean fan or stuffs xD!

Kinda awkward lah at first
cause most of us were not VERY sure of the EXACT words
haha

Then it became more awkward when we don't know WHEN to start singing the song
you know the times where
"i look at you, you look at me. SMILE" punya awkward?
yea that kind of awkward
it's like we were waiting for one person to sing the loudest first then only the whole group be the backup singers xD!

Then I went alicia-ish hahaha
so i went :
Okay~
Ah 1.
Ah 2.
Ah 1-2-3-4

............................................

*silence*

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

epic failed hahaha
what's SO FUNNY was that i didn't JUST count
i did it with dumb actions lagiiiiiii
hahahha
rugi no pics or video man xD!
can you imagine?
everyone was looking at you doing the countdown with the DUMBEST actions and end up TOTAL SILENCE?
LOL
but i'm TOTALLY alright with it lahh
cause im VERY comfortable being around my classmates
plus they got used with me being that nuts xD!
so i also LOL when they LOL xD!
funnnieee mannn

attempt #2
Ah 1.
Ah 2.
SING AH YOU GUYS!
*laughs*
Ah 1-2-3-4.

Sang yi chu ka ha mi da
Sang yi chu ka ha mi da
Sang yi chu ka ha mi da
Sang yi chu ka ha mi da

ahhhhhhh zhu ni sheng ri kuai le
zhu ni sheng ri kuai le
zhu ni sheng ri kuai le
zhu ni sheng ri kuai le

ahhhhh Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you

ahhhhhh...no more
hahaha

Happy Birthday Wennnnnn :)

Pasent

2010-10-18T19:31:00.004+09:00

This sucks
Thanks to Facebook, I checked out Kent's profile

I have NO IDEA
WHY
I searched for his profile

As I was about to click SEARCH
My mind was telling me :
No big deal. It's your past whattttt.

After checking out his profile,
...........uhm I don't wanna talk about it

I let go already
I mean, what? It's been 1? almost 2 years?
The feeling's no longer here
Out of my life
Away from me
I really did let go
I know I did
I feel like I did
at least I think I did
that means I did
So, yea I did
Conclusion, I did.... right? Yea....so I guess I did

Some memories are not meant to be kept
especially these

In a very confused mood right now
It's like I'm stuck between my past and present
"Pasent"? o.O

I'm here now
I'm living my own life without him
but the memories kept pulling me back to the past.
itstillhauntsmetilltoday
He did came back
But I stopped myself from repeating the same mistake
I won't say I did it in a decent way. Kinda too straight to the point that time.
But he did a GREAT job after ending everything
nvm no point talkng what crap happened after that

so mixed up right now
I'm mad
mad of he what he did
mad of myself for clicking SEARCH
mad of myself for having/showing ANY emotions after checking out his profile
madforstillhavingapieceofhiminmylife
madforstillhavingaplaceforhiminmyheart
everything.everything.isstartingtocomebackbitbybit.everythg.anditsucks.

Created memories

2010-10-17T16:23:00.004+09:00

Creating memories at Sam's birthday party now :D

First thing's first,
Sam's house is HUGE!
Mansion man O.O

A-NY-WAY,
I'm blogging now at this party haha
cause I prefer blogging than watching 'Drag Me to Hell' with all my kawans. haha. But I'm still in the same room with them, so I'll still scream whenever there's a scary scene or stuffs.
Had loads of shouting just now.

=='''

Yeaps, just had one again.
haha.

Have loads of laughs while blogging now(while hearing the sound effects of the movie) cause guys are even more NOT macho here haha
One is shutting their ears with their fingers while sitting next to his gf
Another one is using his collar to cover up his eyes while sitting next to his gf also. hahaha.
tsk. tsk. tsk.
guys~ guys~ haha

there's one thing i wanna compliment about this movie
that it's sound effect is so damn good man haha
scared the hell out of me LOADS of times haha =='''

Sam's cake so cantekkk :)
I think photos will be uploaded in fb by Lee Jun

Well i think I'm gonna leave soon with Fran's car

Happy Early Birthday Sam :)
Will wish you again tomorrow haha

Tip : Back off

2010-10-13T18:16:00.004+09:00

Woah
Just woke up
Hate having noon naps man
Made me feel moody one everytime I woke up =='''
what do you call it in chinese again?
Qi Chuang Qi izit? lol
but i kept falling asleep in front of the tv these few days
maybe my couch have some kind of stuffs that will make me feel sleepy whenever I lie down on it
(kan Fran? hahahha)

yea anyways,
i have qi chuang qi
to those who dunno what i'm talking about,
qi chuang qi is something like ....uhh...
when a person just woke up, they'll be hot-tempered for a period of time?
can i put it that way? lol
so yea lo, i have qi chuang qi :D
Tip : Back off when Alicia just woke up
haha

ohhh! and and and
when people kacau me when I'm sleeping or wake me up just for FUN
seriously, I can and I WILL burn the whole city down =='''
seriously =='''
I don't buy the word FUN in such situations man
Tip #2 : never kacau Alicia when she's asleep
haha

I learnt something in school today
the word
"Kia si"
LOL
Fran : keep copy copy copy only o..so tired. feel sleepy.
Alicia : that's why i stopped lol
Fran : we(Fran, Jun and Wa) still copy lah..kia si lah us..SPM
Alicia : Ha? Kia si??
Fran : Kia su is scared to lose. Si is die.
Alicia : Ohhh..
Fran : 'Some' (do the eye thingie hahaha) people kia su, we're kia si
Alicia : hahaha. yea yea. I'll blog that out later

tada. here i am blogging it out lol

ohh ohh ohh!
learnt another thing today
"Nothing is black. Nothing is white. Everything's grey"
- Francisca Lo

haha :D

Excited

2010-10-12T17:50:00.002+09:00

Am excited :)
Kan Jeson? Kan Jeson? :D
I know you know what I know kan kan kan bruatha?
HAHA

Wheeeeeeeee
Gonna get busy again
:)
I hope haha

wow =)

2010-10-08T18:40:00.005+09:00

Been reading a book Ronald gave me (Thanks Ronald)
"Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom.

A lot of times I went 'wow' as I was reading this book.
Here's just one part of it =)

page 40

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.
The tension of opposites?
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."
Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
"A wrestling match." He laughs. "Yes, you could describe life that way."
So which side wins, I ask?
"Which side wins?"
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
"Love wins. Love always wins."

=)
Almost finish reading it. Inspiring~ haha

Ohh!
Hi Jeson :)
Thanks for texting me man
Felt better
And I'm not lying aighhhttt?
I really am fineeeee
You really did helped me just by listening
And I did not said that just to make you feel good haha
Thanks again brother

-Alicia-

I am STILL doing fine

2010-10-07T18:12:00.004+09:00

Sometimes you just need to
SHUDDUP

Seriously man,
DO YOU REALLY HAVE TO DO IT AGAIN?!

You've made your mistakes over and over again,
and I've made a fool out of myself by trusting you every single time
But this time
NO MORE
I ain't gonna care
NO MORE
I'm not gonna give what you want anymore
This is not the first time
There's a limit for everything
including FORGIVENESS

If you know me well,
I don't go for
"Forgive and Forget"
I choose to
"Forgive and never Forget"

I'm not counting your faults,
but I'm not gonna tolerate with you for making the same mistakes either

everything that you've done
every hurts that you gave me
I've surrendered them to God
and after that, I'll tell myself :
You know what?
It's alrightttt
It's okayyy
everyone make mistakessss
Maybe they're wrong about her
Maybe she don't mean it
Give her a second chance

WELL IT'S NOT ALRIGHT !!!!!!!!!!!!
BETRAYING YOUR FRIENDS IS
NOT ALRIGHT
WANTING YOUR FRIENDS TO FALL IS
NOT OKAY
GIVE HER A SECOND CHANCE MY ***********************
Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!
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SIGH
I had ENOUGH of your plans and talks
Just get a life and leave me alone man
I don't want this and I don't need this

Despite how PISSED I am now,
forgiving you is a MUST
Despite how much I wanna spill all your dirty works you've done to everyone,
keeping them to myself is a choice I MUST make

What's so stupid is that I find myself still caring about how you feel and blaming myself for the things I did not do
Guess I've really treat you as one of my true friends after all
But now,
Hmmm....
I guess.....
You're a person that I'll have to get over with
either I like it or not

But then again..........
I'm fine...
Alicia's ALWAYS-ALWAYS-ALWAYS fine.......
Yes Ronald, your cell member's just fineeeeeeee
see? >>> =)

Get it over with.
Tough gurl till the end.
- Alicia -
:)

Twilight Zone - What happens when you can't remember the name of that vegetable on your plate? =O

2010-10-03T19:03:00.006+09:00

Teacher Roseline, my current English teacher gave the whole class newspapers to read - The Star, 27th September 2010.
And from the newspapers, teacher want us to find 50 vocabularies(action words) as our assignments.

I don't read newspapers.

Just wanna get it all out to you guys first. haha.
Well I just don't like to read newspapers. I'll just read 'em when it's about celebs. NEVER NEVER NEVER about politics..............
Oh alright~ maybe JUST the handsome Barack Obama. haha. But ONLY when he's face on the page xD!

A-NY-WAY
I was reading an article titled :
Twilight Zone
What happens when you can't remember the name of that vegetable on your plate?
By Mary Schneider

Now the reason why i choose to type this article out it's because.......hmm.......well I don't know~ it's not really an article that will make you all go 'WOW' or anything. Just feel like sharing it I guess.

Maybe because there are some phrases I can use for my narrative essay? Haha.

Or maybe somehow i can relate myself to the title - "What happens when you can't remember the name of that vegetable on your plate?"
I ALWAYS, ALWAYS, AL-WAYS have probs with remembering the names of the veges haha. Try asking Sherah or Fran or Lee Jun. Everytime when we're having vege at school or else where, I'll ask "what do you call this again?" haha.

OR maybe because this is the article that I finished reading so far, without a voice in my head saying :

GO TO NEXT PAGE!
WARNING : SLEEP MODE in
FIVE!
*Houston, we have a problem*
FOUR!
THREE!
*MEI DEI. MEI DEI.*
TWO!
*HANG IN THERE!*
ONE!
Zzzzzzzzzz.

hahaha :D

The article's quite long. But bear with me =)

The other evening, I was invited to a friend's house for dinner. After a relaxing pre-dinner cocktail on her patio, I sat down at her dining table and eagerly examined the plate in front of me.

My eyes took in the chicken breasts in a creamy mustard sauce, the plump baked potato, and the ... and the ... For the life of me, I couldn't remember the name of the long green vegetable stems on my plate.

My heart skipped a beat and a chasm opened up in the bottom of my stomach. It wasn't even as if it was an exotic vegetable rarely seen at a dinner plate.

"It begins with a 'P'," I said to myself. "Concentrate and it will come to you !"

For some odd reason, the words "broccoli spears" popped into my head.

"Are you all right?" asked my friend, obviously noticing that I wasn't making an effort to eat anything.

"I'm fine," I lied. "I'm just thinking how good everything looks : the chicken, the potato, and the ... and the ..."

"What's this vegetable called?" I asked, pointing my fork at the green stems. "It begins with a 'P', doesn't it?"

My friend stopped eating and looked at me. "Is this a joke?"

"No. For some reason I can't remember what it's called. Isn't that silly?"

I laughed nervously. And so did she.

I felt as if I were floating in a strange twilight zone; an eerie place where everyday words randomly disappear from my vocabulary. One minute there's a fork in my hand; and the next I'm staring blankly at a nameless piece of metal, I might look at a bar of soap and think that it's an egg, or put the carpet on to boil to make myself a hot fan of coffee, or take the television for a walk.

"It's asparagus," my friend said kindly.

"Uh! It doesn't even begin with a 'P'," I said feeling a little panicky. "Can you imagine if I'd recovered from this memory lapse on my own? I'd be calling this 'paragus' for the rest of my life."

"You're just tired," my friend offered. "You'll feel better after a good night's sleep."

However, I couldn't get to sleep that night. I tossed and turned for an hour, and then I got up to consult an old friend : Google.

I punched in the word "Alzheimer's" and was immediately rewarded with 81.4 million results. Now, I know that it's rare for someone to develop the disease in their early fifties, but I wanted to find out more about the condition.

Wikipedia offers the following:
"As the disease advances, symptoms include confusion, irritability and aggression, mood swings, language breakdown, long-term memory loss, and the general withdrawal of the sufferer as their senses decline."

I thought about a friend whose mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease about five years ago. Once a month, he drives up from Singapore to visit her in his family home in Seremban. Sometimes she doesn't even remember who he is.

"My youngest son doesn't come to see me anymore," she will sometimes say to him.

"Oh, why is that?" he'll ask, pretending that he is someone other than that very son.

"I think he's angry with me."

"Why would anyone be angry with you?"

"Because he doesn't like all the homework I give him. All he wants to do is play football."

On such occasions, my friend doesn't even try to convince his mother, a former secondary school teacher, that he is indeed her youngest son. To do so would only cause her confusion and distress.

"She's gone," he told me once after a particularly trying visit. "Alzheimer's has robbed her of her memory, her dignity, everything that made her who she was. There's no one at home anymore."

I read once that regular participation in intellectual pursuits, such as a crossword puzzles, Sudoku, chess and the like, might reduce the risk of Alzheimer's disease. But I'm not so convinced.

You see, my friend's mother was mentally active, long after she'd retired from teaching, and she was stricken by the disease in her early seventies. There really is no guarantee.

I could try to solve complex mathematical problems on a daily basis, only to begin showing symptoms of the disease after 10 years. Or I could watch soap operas every spare minute I have for the rest of my life, only to die with a perfectly healthy, underused brain.

I also read that the aluminium present in most underarm deodorants might lead to Alzheimer's.

To smell or not to smell? That is the question.

** Finishiooo =)
Not bad lahh kan? Okay right? At least it's not ALL facts xD!

You know what's so ironic after reading the article is that there's a deodorant advertisement on the SAME PAGE of this article. haha. But Mary Schneider said it best : To smell or not to smell? That is the question. HAHA

P/S : Try crystals instead. Deodorants ain't good for us =)

Contented with little, yet wishing for more.

2010-10-01T15:10:00.004+09:00

I miss being busy
I miss having a handful of tasks that I MUST do
It's CRAZY when I was having school assignments/prefects' functions last year and early this year
but once I stopped and had a lot of rest-and JUST stay focus in my studies
I feel like...
Something's missing

Somehow,
I feel like I failed in my life
Yea, failed.
Failed in not growing EVERYDAY

I have TOO MUCH time for JUST staying focus for SPM
till I take things for granted
and choose not to study MORE/HARDER
Yea, that's why you see me now blogging instead of studying o.O

IF I have loads of stuffs to take care and handle
Time will be so precious to me
It's like I can't lose or waste even a second
I'll treat
EVERY MILLISECOND AS A STEP AWAY FROM SUCCESS
in everything I do
(including my studies)
I'll be more focus on my targets
So focus till I'm so desperate in achieving them

That kind of desperate is what I miss a lot
Having that kind of desperation,
"good" will never be enough
"great" is just another word to replace good
It is only ENOUGH when I am BETTER than great

Being desperate
pushes me to dream BIGGER dreams
pushes me to go BEYOND my limits
pushes me strive HARDER
Being desperate pushes me to produce perseverance

I gained experiences from having that kind of desperation while handling the tasks I had these few years
And it is through these tasks and experiences,
humbleness and contentment play a major role

I hope I'll use this kind desperation for SPM?
Hopefully lahh kann? haha.

Despite not having multi-task now;
Despite not doing BETTER than great in my studies,
I am still contented.

Just like what Charles Lamb quoted
My motto is: Contented with little, yet wishing for more.

I am contented.
But also wishing for more
and
MORE
to be a BETTER me in all the things I do

//- ALiCia

Wedding Ring

2010-09-28T17:40:00.002+09:00

During my Business test this morning,
I was wondering
"Why the wedding ring should be put on the fourth finger?"
haha.

I actually I got an answer from Natalie punya fb status last time
she posted :
The vein in the fourth finger is directly connected to our heart.

"Wow" at first,
But then I wanna know more
So what do we do when we have questions?
Google it xD!

Check this out =)

Thumb represents parents
Second finger represents brothers & sisters
Center finger represents own self
Fourth finger represents your partner
Last finger represents your children

Why the wedding ring should be put on the fourth finger??
Pls read the following, you may not believe that really God made this a miracle (this is from a Chinese expert) but still interesting!

Firstly, join your palms as shown in photo below, center finger bend and put together back to back
Secondly, let the rest of the 4 fingers touch tips to tip
Game begins, follow the instructions below for all the 5 fingers but only 1 pair can split.

Try to open your thumb.
The thumb represents parents, it can be opened because all human being do go through sickness and death. Whoever may be, our parents will leave us one day.

Please close up your thumb.
Then open your second finger, this finger represents brothers and sisters, they do have their own family which is the reason that they will leave us too.

Now close up your second finger.
Open up your little finger, this represents your children. Sooner or later they too will leave us for they got they own living to live nevertheless

Close up your little finger.
Try to open your fourth finger in which we put our wedding ring;
you will be surprised to find that it cannot be opened at all.
Because it represents husband and wife, this whole life you will be attached to each other

This is just a saying lah yea?
Don't go dishonoring your parents or start fights with bros/sis xD!
Cause without them,
where would you and me be today?

Even thou my future husband(If I'm gonna get one) will play a HUGE role in my life,
but what I learn from my parents is that
HONOUR OUR PARENTS
Be it our own parents or our future parents in law
Love and care for them, people! =)

And I'm grateful to have my parents.
I truly am.
Cause they've shown me HOW to honour them when I grow up
by
BEING a great example

So yea lohh =)
Love
our partner & our parents

Dad JUST smiled. Hmmmm...

2010-09-27T20:32:00.006+09:00

Phew~
Done with Econs today.

Tomorrow Business o.O
The MOST boring subject man
Even history's better
Cause AT LEAST history have some stories here and there
But for Business
FACTS
FACTS
FACTS
NOTHING
but
FACTS
=='''
Gila man Business
For Form 5's Business, 95% talks about bantuan perniagaan
Imagine studying insurans, pengangkutan, perbankan etc
DETAILS
by
DETAILS
O.o

TODAY
Hmm..
Exam. Exam. Exam.
Finish school.
Go home.
Went to City Mall around 2:30p.m
Went to Popular
Didn't went out alone for a long time
Miss that kind of freedom hahaha
So yay! Had the mall all by myself for around 15? 20 minutes?
Then came Lee Jun
=)
*I don't mind going out with friends,
but I like going out alone too.
I'm not weird. Just enjoying my OWN time aightssss.
Don't y'all judge me xD!*

Walked around
Keep checking my phone cause we were expecting teacher's text or phone call
Manatauuuu...
No line =='''
That time around 3:15p.m ady
Should start at 3 xD!

So we went down to Starbucks
Saw teacher sitting there ady
haha.
Then teacher and Lee Jun ordered their drinks
I didn't lahh
No offense people, I don't REALLY like Starbucks xD!

Tuition. Tuition. Tuition.
BAM!
4:30p.m

Dad haven't reach yet
Walked around with Jun
- 1 new message -
from daddy
"Wht time pck u? 5.15pm"
(Asked and answered xD!)

Jun wanna send me home
But you know lahh kannn
Pai seh lah xD!

Jun: Okay we go one round this side, you make up your mind. I won't say anything. You made up your mind then tell me lah. *sarcastically*
Me : Haha. Okay lahh. I follow.

- Jun driving. driving. driving -
"Oi! Don't simply stop i tell you!!"
"I WANT TO SLEEP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"OI I let you pass but you don't want??!!"
"This car again!!"

And I spent a lot of time laughing when Jun was driving.
Among all the 'P' drivers that I know,
she's the most kick in
1. Trying not to fall asleep when she's driving
2. Scolding other people's driving
(No faul language lahhh. haha)

When I got home,
Dad was at the living room
"Who sent you home o?"
"Lee Jun. See~ she got her driving license ady. A lot of my friends can drive ady"
"Then what about you? Why you didn't get your driving license? *Smiled*"
- Stunned -
"Ha?????"
- Hang gao gao oh me that time -
Then dad asked for the 2nd time:
"Yours lea?"
"Ha?? Mom let mea? Kan she said after SPM?? Not after SPM???"
Dad just smiled

Dang!!
I thought I had my chance !
When parents do that, I mean smiled and not answering our questions
What do they mean arhx?
Daddy, please say
YES
or
NO
Your moi zhu not good in guessing
xD!

- aLiCia -

Decisions. Decisions.

2010-09-26T18:38:00.004+09:00

Man...I didn't study the whole day...
If i can earn money by procrastinating, I'll be the richest person alive o.O

Tomorrow having Econs exam.
2 papers lagi.
Still this steady
=='''

Sigh
You know the times where you make a LIST of the things you want
And not pushing yourself hard enough to get them?

Sigh
I need my brother o.O

Gorrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!
Nyia lao moi mm hiao tuk su !!!!!!

Hmm...
Was pondering about what Sherah told me last Friday
We had a talk when she came by my house
We were just talking. talking. talking
then she suddenly talked about my gift/talent
What she said really shocked me
I felt like God was talking to me through Sherah
Cause I was praying about seeking deeper into my gift/talent a day before that, which is Thursday
Yea, was planning to go for law
then i got confused after the talk
o.O
But then again...
I'm okay with both law and using my 'gift/talent' in my future

Law......
I like the way how a lawyer works lah
like it's a step-by-step thing
I like those kind of works,
step-by-step
I don't like to be at the top *snap* just like that
It feels.....unsatisfied
It's like I didn't work hard for it and I don't earn it
I like gaining experiences
The more pain the experience may be, the wiser I'll be
Yes, I am asking for pain
LOL
that sounded freaky o.O
But trials produces one's perseverance what =)
If life has only ups and no lows,
where's all the fun????
Plus, choosing law sets my parents' mind at rest
Cause I am still, their one and only daughter
Law = I'm okay with it = My parents are happy with it

Gift/Talent...
Yes, I won't be telling what's my gift/talent cause I'm not REALLY sure about them yet
Not sure is that REALLY part of Alicia
PLUS
Be humble =)
okay! back to topic!
Hmmm.....
Kinda risky
But I'll be happy
enjoy it actually
A LOT
Still need some training thou o.O
IF and ONLY IF I'm an orphan,
I'll go for this
BUT,
I'm not
so..............................
Yea lohhh......
Don't know lahhh...
Gift/Talent = Enjoy it = Parents saying NO NO NO NO NO till the day i die o.O

My ambition : Lawyer
My dream : Putting my *gift/talent* in good use. haha! not telling =)

Hmm yea lohh...
Gonna pray hard for God's guidance
Since everything is still on 'pending' mode
xD!
Will see what God has for me lahh
Cause dreaming/hoping/working hard is NOTHING if that's not God's will
=)

But for now,
SPM

Too Cute to be True

2010-09-26T14:07:00.007+09:00

Recently,

I CINTA PUZZLES
3D punya.
Don't know why.
Haha.
Prefer Mickey Mouse ones.
or the ones that the whole 3D puzzle is the kepala of the cartoon.
Not because I cinta those cartoon characters or anything.
Just that it's more cute what?
xD!

Check these out :

Prepare to be own by Alicia Chong !
Muahahahahahha !!!

I just like the colour blue of Doraemon.
HAHA.

This one better than the previous one kann?
=)

This one kinda weird o.O
haha.
But still cute kann?

If only there's a 3D puzzle with Spongebob's head only
=O
=)))

Front

Back
LOVE this!
ARGHHHHHH!!!
1B got this kah?? I think i ever saw this before.
I'm gonna hunt you down.

Still,
need $$
haha.
I hao oi these man~

$86, 400

2010-09-22T18:08:00.002+09:00

Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day.
Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course?

Each of us has such a bank. It's name is TIME.

Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.
Every night it writes off as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to a good purpose.

It carries over no balance. It allows no over draft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day.

If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours. There is no drawing against "tomorrow."
You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success!

The clock is running!! Make the most of today.

To realise the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who failed a grade.

To realise the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realise the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realise the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realise the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who just missed a train.

To realise the value of ONE SECOND, ask someone who just avoided an accident.

To realise the value of ONE MILLISECOND, ask the person who won a silver medal at the Olympics.

- Unknown

Alicia like gao gao this =)

SALUTE !

2010-09-21T16:27:00.005+09:00

Men may be stronger than women
But women are WAY tougher than men.

To guys that disagree this statement,
try bearing a child for 9 months tops.
If you guys can handle the pain,
I'll never argue with you guys about this statement.

No wait, forget about giving birth.
Just try PMS and not complaining about the pain.
Yesh, I'm talking about
stress
anxiety
tension
depression
unhappiness
insomnia
headaches
mood swings
bloating
abdominal crapms
constipation
fatigue
etc. etc. etc.

Alright back to giving birth,
Guys you may ask,
"How MUCH pain women endured when they're giving birth?"

Some person said this :
"Pinch your lower lip as HARD as you can. Next, with your other hand, pinch your upper lip as hard as you can. Now, just pull them over your head.
*Kids, don't try this at home xD!*

Some said this :

"Ever try to move a watermellon through the eye of a needle?"

Boys/Guys/Gents/Men/Male,
respect your mom, your sisters, your aunty, your grandmom, your girlfriend, your girl kawans and ALL the sistas out there xD!

Sistas, I salute ya ! =)

Each Tear

2010-09-20T15:14:00.006+09:00

- Each Tear -
by Mary J.Blige

There's something that I want to say,
But I feel I don't know how.
Until I just can't hold it one more day,
So I think I let it out.

You're on my mind more than I may show
You're in my heart more than you may know
And the last thing that I want,
Is to you to fall apart.
You're future will be clearer,
I want you to remember.

In each tear
there's a lesson,
Makes you wiser than before
Makes you stronger than you know
In each tear
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what you're meant to be...

We can't change the things,
That we done, that's in our past.
But fighting won't get us anywhere,
So if you want, then here's my hand...

Every night there is one thing I do
I bow my head and I pray for you
And the last thing that I want
Is for you to fall apart
you're future will be clearer
I want you to remember

You're much more than a struggle that you go through
You're not defined by your pain, so let it go...
You're not a victim, you're more like a winner
And you're not in defeat, you're more like a queen

CINTA the lyrics
=)

Steady kauuuu. Tin dit loiiii.

2010-09-19T13:16:00.004+09:00

I felt different when I woke up this morning.
I guess maybe it's because of the thoughts I had before I sleep last night. Stupid and useless thoughts.

Felt like someone passed away.
Told you I felt weird.
And feel so emo. And I hate it == I HATE being emo and stuffs like that. Cause it made me feel weak. And I hate being weak ==
Tough girl till the end. Wohooo!
Suck it in girl !

BUT

I'm fine.
Don't feel like talking about it since there's no point talking about useless thoughts what? Besides, I'm okay I'm okay :) Still living.

Hmm...I miss my bro already.
A LOT.
Feel like talking to him.
Steady Alicia. You'll be fine.
If only we can dry our tears.
Okay, that sounded emo ==
Urgh! STOP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Err I think I'm gonna stop now.
Or else I'll type emo craps and stuffs ==

Tough girl till the end
- ALiCia -

Come come stupid thoughts. Lai lai lai... I'll defeat you. Cause my God is WAY bigger than you.

FB. Formspring. Thanks and Sorry.

2010-09-17T18:18:00.008+09:00

Wow..this is my 2nd post today o.O

Karen, if you're reading this.
I NEED FACEBOOK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha..
Just to kill time lahh...not cause I'm obsessed with facebook or something like that xD!

Okays..
What to cakap in 2nd post?
Hmmm....

Let's see...
last post was about me being anxious cause of SPM

And here I am...
Killing time

"Aiya~ apa macam oh like this Alicia"
Tsk tsk tsk. Bad Alicia. Badddd

Hmmm....
Ohh ! I got formspring already~~~~~ =)
Not bad lahh formspring...but till now only 2 person asked me questions =.=
haha
Ask me. Ask me. Ask me.
http://www.formspring.me/alicia0715
And I'll
Answer you. Answer you. Answer you.

Hmm...I guess that's all lahhh..
Feel like going out for a walk

Bye people!
- LiCia -

Ohhh~ change of plan!!
Baru got a call from Fran
She needs unwanted toys, story books or stationary for her cell's visitation tomorrow.
Gonna call up Vera also.
=)

Okays! Found some stuffs! Yay!

So...the 2 teddy bears are one of stuffs I'll be giving to Fran tomorrow
"Ha???? These are not unwanted stuffs lah Alicia~"
Well, it is.
Meant to THROW it actually, but nah~ just like what Fran said:
Time to bless others!

To my kawans-kawans that faham-faham how i get these teddy bears. Just wanna say I'M FINEEEEEEE. No worries. Still steady bha me =)
Kept them for so long ady, so I guess it's time for me to let go lahh kan buddies?? *Deep breath*

Err...... if you're reading this. Thanks. And sorry, no point keeping it already.

- aLiCia -

Apa macam?

2010-09-17T12:56:00.005+09:00

I like mixing malay in my blog posts already and i have no idea why.
Lebih interesting i guess. To me lah, if you don't think so just act like you like it too xD!

So...title's Apa macam?
Here goessss...

I still have 60+ days left to live.
60+ days......
Quite long if you're in a vacation.
Okay okay lahhh if you wanna get married
DOOM if your gonna have SPM

I still remember my school's board count down :
200 DAYS to SPM
Now...60+ days o.O

apa macam
apa macam
apa macam

apa boleh buat?
matiii lahhh..

LOL

BUT...
still living..
Steady Alicia...Steady kauuuu

Sigh

Who don't wanna score well in their academics lea?
Siapa tak mau?
But it's not easy lahh....

I remember seeing my bro study for SPM
Wahhhlaoo...punya gila the way he study

I remember him taking a noon nap at the living room.
Then my maid woke him up
My bro's first reaction :
*looked out the window*
*looked at my maid*

Kenapa kau tak panggil sy bangun?
*In a sleepy and good wayyy alrighttt...my bro's a greattt guy =)*

Ha? Petang ni Bryon. Bukan pagi.
*Bro looked at his shirt*
*slept back*

My bro actually thought he was wearing his uniform and overslept at the couch.
freaky man.
sampai he don't know night and day

My bro's taking Med in IMU and he said the VERY THE GILA words I've ever heard :
Li, you better study well. I'm taking med courses now and I think SPM is harder than med.

Me : WHAT THE......???!!!! SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?!?

Bro : Yeapss...you better study well.

AGAIN,
apa macam
apa macam
apa macam

Answer : Study lorrr

Yea study lorrr...
talking about
Econs *chammm lorrr*
Business *matii lahh*
History *helppppppp*
and other subjects lagiii

ohh guii dee lahhhhhh....

ALICIA IN NEED OF LOTSA COFFEE o.O

Study Group

2010-09-16T16:59:00.011+09:00

Had study group with Justine, Karen, Frank, Pat and Winson just now.
For the FIRST time, I actually think study group helps xD!
You know lahh kan, if with kawans-kawans sure talk instead of studying xD!

The maddening buzz of my alarm woke me up (copy from Teacher Roseline's essay xDD!)
But I slept back xD!
Zzzzzz.....
The moment I opened my eyes, the first thing came to my mind:
Ohh crap! Am I late ?!
Tapi....tiada lah~
it's 9.23a.m =)

Arrived at Coffee Bean around 10a.m
(Tinggal at Damai whatttt...cepat lah xD!)

Me da firrrsttttt
Then comes
Justine!!! aka Just.Tine
=)

talk talk talk

Karen and Frank arrived
talk a bit bit more
Karen got herself a drink

Flipped through some pages
lepas tu, comes
Patricia aka Pat
&
Son(read as Sen) aka Winson
=)

moved to another table sebab tidak cukup tempat

"Yay! Winson pray =)!"
"Seriously bha?"
"Yea"
"Okays =)"

*prayed*

I help you
You help me
A little "Ohhh..i see" here
A little "How...?" there

2 hours gone
haha!

12.36p.m
We went to BK for lunncccchhhhh
=)

talk talk talk
laugh laugh laugh

Winson went home
Got text from Ronald asking how was it and we tricked him that we didn't study but went to Metro the whole day instead haha xD!
Then...
Just.Tine went home.
Kemudian....
Frank and Pat went to Funky Town and meet up with Wilkin
&
Karen came to my place
Chilled out a liddle
Bro sent Karen homeeeee
=)

Pitcha below!
Not clear thou.
Just took it when we're at BK
No proves that we really had study group
=(
Tapi....Tuhan tau bhaa xD!

Winson balik rumah

I think this is the part where Frank was telling about a guy eating crazy food o.O

Patricia =)

加油

2010-09-15T15:13:00.004+09:00

JJ 林俊杰
加油

最近你好吗少了一点微笑
说的话有点少
最近我也不好全世界都在逆转
人开始反向思考

发现你爱的人到处跑
昨晚刚升职今天被炒
莫名其妙谁会知道
是不是上天开的玩笑

地震时你想和谁拥抱
什么是生命中的美好
轻易放掉却不知道
幸福就在下一个转角

说一声加油一切更美好
所有的悲伤请往边靠
曾经流过的泪
湿了伤口就让阳光晒干而褪

这一种加油人人都需要
手牵手我们一起赛跑
说好不见不散
每分每秒守候你到老

the beat goes on 时间它一直走
就像是life goes on 这过程或许痛
不管顺流或逆流你总得抬起头
让我们一起走走过艰难和困惑

发现你爱的人到处跑
昨晚刚升职今天被炒
莫名其妙谁会知道
是不是上天开的玩笑

地震时你想和谁拥抱
什么是生命中的美好
轻易放掉却不知道
幸福就在下一个转角

说一声加油一切更美好
所有的悲伤请往边靠
曾经流过的泪
湿了伤口就让阳光晒干而褪

这一种加油人人都需要
手牵手我们一起赛跑
说好不见不散
每分每秒守候你到老

关关是难关但我们关关过
雨后天晴的阳光在天空闪闪
所出现的彩虹忽然间我们才懂
如果这是一场马拉松那我们一起加油

说一声加油一切更美好
所有的悲伤请往边靠
曾经流过的泪
湿了伤口就让阳光晒干而褪

这一种加油人人都需要
手牵手我们一起赛跑
说好不见不散
每分每秒守候你到老

1 Thessalonians 5:11
"Therefore encourage one another and build each other up...."

这一种加油人人都需要 =)

BGR

2010-09-13T12:53:00.002+09:00

To peeps that don't know what BGR is,
BGR = Boy Girl Relationship
=)

Alrightsssss...BGR~...hmmm.....
Interesting topic

Almost every teenager talks about it
I mean c'mon...puberty...curiosity...etc ect xD!

Hmmm...
From being single
to
having favorable impression of someone
to
admiring someone
to
liking someone
to
loving someone(infatuated towards someone i think)
to
break up
to
being back single

Going through all that, made me gone through A LOT of thinking
THINK.
THINK.
THINK.

then I reached a conclusion :
BGR is so DAMN(Can i use the word damn? Yea, SO DAMNNNNNN)
TIRINGGGGGGGG

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
(I can go on with this 'SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO' the WHOLE DAY)
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Exhausting.

SERIOUSLY.

And that was my first time having BGR and it was MORE than ENOUGH for me.
Just like what Sherah said : One is enough, two is too much.
Hahahaha xD!

Uhmm...not gonna blog out how's the process of being in a BGR to single in this post cause I blogged that out at another post LASTTTT year.
So I'm gonna talk about my opinion AFTER being back single
=)
No wait, I like to put it this way...
So i'm gonna talk about my opinion after having that much of FREEEEEEEEEEDDDOOOMMMM
=)))

*clears throat*
BGR....
Not sure when will be my 2nd time.
The slower it gets to my 2nd BGR, the longer my freedom will last.
HAHAHA xDD!

Hmm...after everything,
the picture I have in my mind when I'm an adult
CHANGED.

Well, last year..
I see myself having my own family, having kids, working / being a housewife =='''
I know, that sound funny when i mentioned the housewife part.
I bet my close friends are laughing their heads off when they think of me being a housewife cause I don't even know how to iron my clothes =='''

Now,
I see myself...well...not married =)

A lot of my friends say :
Wahhlaoo..you mao o? Don't want get married?

hahaha

If anyone ask me, I'll say I don't wanna get married.
But ACTUALLY, what I mean is....
Getting married or NOT getting married is God's will lahh. Not mine.
It's just that I'll be fine IF I don't get married.
It's not that I RESIST to get married or something like that.
I'll go with the flow.
It's just that I won't FREAK OUT if I'm still not married when I'm 30+ and my career's paying me BIG TIME xD!
How would you know my career will work very well?
Well, I'm sure I can I guess. That's one of my goals =)
So yea...
Cause I lazy wanna explain this much to whoever ask me :
'Why you don't wanna get married?'
So I choose to say :
I don't wanna get married.

Short and simple.
=)

So am I ready for my 2nd BGR?
Hmmmmmmm......................
Hmmmmmmmm....................
and a lot a lot a lot A WHOLE LOT of
Hmmmmms'
xD!

Skipped question and off I go -
Licia =)

Me BEHR-RUA-THA's back

2010-09-12T00:23:00.010+09:00

First of all...

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY~!
My brother's back~ =)))))

He landed around 4:30p.m. just now, but I didn't manage to pick him up at the airport with my mom cause i was having cell group. Mom told me he got thinner. Anyone who knows my brother, yea he is ALREADY that thin, imagine him being THINNER o.O whole body macam that lampu tiang apa macam =O

Now it's 12.29a.m. and I STILL haven't seen him yet. SIGH~ ada kawan sudah lupa adik this my bro T.T xD!

My bro called me yesterday and asked me not to tell ANYONE about his "GRAND" arrival back to K.K. Guess he wanna surprise his friends? Like what's he up to now? I guess. So now i can speak it loud and clear~

MY BROTHER'S BACK

I have NO IDEA why i love seeing bro's shaver and tooth brush HA HA!

Me books with he belt

Gatsby =)

In need of DISTRACTIONS

2010-09-10T21:33:00.005+09:00

Get out of my mind!!
Shuuuuhhhh~

I need DISTRACTIONS!

S.O.S

Someone help me

!!!!!!

Okays, I feel like shouting now.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!
!
!
!
!

hmm.....this is not working....no wait! Blogging does not help me to feel better now?!! Ohhh maiii =O!!

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

talking to myself:
GET OUT OF MY MIND
GET OUT OF MY MIND
GET OUT OF MY MIND
GET OUT OF MY MIND
GET OUT OF MY MIND
GET OUT OF MY MIND

~~~

aNd Alicia has left the building

Kept in heart

2010-09-04T14:01:00.007+09:00

There's NO ONE that understands us more than our parents. *Except God of course.

Some may say : My friends know me BEST.
Yea they're right. But that's AFTER they spend a lot of time together. A lot of sweats and tears. A little of argument here and there. Cat fights some more xD!

But PARENTS...
They know us BEFORE going through all that. They know our true inner being, especially moms. I mean, c'mon...having another human being being part of the body for NINE months?
They know what we're TRYING to say or how we feel. Cause I believe they've been through a lot than children do. They've witnessed other people's situations as lessons in their lives. And I do believe they learn things the hard way more than children do.

Finding guidance? Finding people you can trust?
Have a look to the people that you're staying with.

So yea, be grateful peeps! Be contented =)

Personal favourite pic
*Like this pic more than their marriage photos I might say xD!

Gossip

2010-08-24T19:40:00.005+09:00

The following script is a scene from the movie "Doubt".
In this scene, it was a sermon given by a priest. It struck through my heart when I heard this. I think you're gonna have the same moment I had when I first heard this. Enjoy =)

A woman was gossiping with a friend about a man she hardly knew - I know none of you have ever done this - that night she had a dream. A great hand appeared over her and pointed down at her. She was immediately seized with an overwhelming sense of guilt. The next day she went to confession. She got the old parish priest, Father O’Rourke, and she told him the whole thing.

‘Is gossiping a sin?’ she asked the old man. ‘Was that the hand of God Almighty pointing a finger at me? Should I be asking your absolution? Father, tell me, have I done something wrong?’

‘Yes!’ Father O’Rourke answered her. ‘Yes, you ignorant, badly brought up female! You have borne false witness against your neighbor, you have played fast and loose with his reputation, and you should be heartily ashamed!’

So the woman said she was sorry and asked for forgiveness.

‘Not so fast!’ says O’Rourke. ‘I want you to go home, take a pillow up on your roof, cut it open with a knife, and return here to me!’

So the woman went home, took a pillow off her bed, a knife from the drawer, went up the fire escape to the roof, and stabbed the pillow. Then she went back to the old parish priest as instructed.

‘Did you gut the pillow with the knife?’ he says.

‘Yes, Father.’

‘And what was the result?’

‘Feathers,’ she said.

‘Feathers?’ he repeated.

‘Feathers everywhere, Father!’

‘Now I want you to go back and gather up every last feather that flew out on the wind!’

‘Well,’ she said, ‘it can’t be done. I don’t know where they went. The wind took them all over.’

‘And that,’ said Father O’Rourke, ‘is GOSSIP!’

Just when you think a little gossip doesn't mean anything right? Think again =)

When I was pondering about what the Priest said(rather stunned actually), my cell leader Ronald text E3 about what's our goal for the week. Cause we're having Words titled "Goals" in the last cell meeting. Doubtless to reply him, "Not gossiping" xD!

You see, when God works in His time, everything just make sense and everything just fit SO PERFECTLY.

Then Ronald sent me a verse:

Proverbs 16:28
A perverse man stirs up dissension, and a gossip separates close friends.

Have You Ever Been In Love

2010-08-20T21:25:00.003+09:00

Have You Ever Been In Love
-Westlife-

In the morning light
Half awake and half asleep
Have you ever laid there thinking
Was it all a dream?
But you reach out and she's there
Every moment, everywhere
Have you ever been in love?

Have you ever felt
How far a heart can fall
Have you ever stayed up waiting
For a telephone call
Just to hear her say hello
Cause you miss each other so
Have you ever been in love?

Have there been times to laugh
And times you really want to cry
Finding reasons to believe her
cause you'd die a little if she lied
And when in times of doubt
Have you ever tried to work it out
But still she leaves you wondering
What it's all about

And when she's far away
Have you ever felt the need to stray
And tried and then discovered
It just doesn't pay
Cause with her, you can be true
And with her, you can be you
Have you ever been in love?

Have there been times to laugh
And times you really want to cry
Finding reasons to believe her
Cause you'd die a little if she lied
And when in times of doubt
Have you ever tried to work it out
But still she leaves you wondering
What its all about

And when the night comes down
Can you call your house a home
Do you dream you're still together
And wake up alone
Have you ever been in love
The way that I'm in love
Have you ever been in love?
Have you ever been in love?

*MUST LISTEN! I know they're old and stuffs like that..but you just can't deny that they are so good in singing what?*

Have all the "victory" you want

2010-08-18T18:54:00.003+09:00

What's so good about celebrating one's failure, friend?

One of my close friend told me : When it comes to results, it'll show how truthful the friends you have.

Again I ask, did you really feel that great when you see me fall?
And you call me your friend.

-Licia

My Own Time

2010-08-17T17:37:00.004+09:00

My close friends always said that I know NO LIMITS when it comes to joking around and being nuts. Proves can be found at my FB videos and photos xD!
That's one part of me. Giving all out when it comes to fun. And I mean, ALL out.

But there's times whereby I want to find a place or a even JUST a small space of my own and do a lot a lot of thinking. Not running away, but just spend some time and just THINK about stuffs.

Think about ....
How's my life.
How's my race running towards the main goal.
How much have I grown.
How do I view things today. Is it the same as yesterday.
Have I grown.
Have I did well in the things I choose to do.
Have I made my parents proud.
Have I made myself proud.
Have I be grateful EVERYDAY.
Have I do the right things today.
Have I walk my talk.
Have I encouraged ONE person today.
Have I encouraged MYSELF today.
Have I....gone BEYOND my limits.
And a lot a lot of questions that I have for my own.

It's kinda hard for me to find that small tiny cubicle of mine.
Everytime when I was ABOUT to step in that crampted space that I yearn for,

"Alicia! Hey you alright? What's with the long face? Okay kah?"
"Ha? No arhx..kinda sleepy." will be my answer E-VE-RY-TIMEEEEEEE.

It's not their fault. Maybe they are used to see being nuts xD! I know my friends did that just because they care. And I appreciate them a lot =)

It's just that I need a time for MY OWN. People tend to catch up the world's pace that they forgot to catch up their OWN pace. I'm one of them.

There's a lot of thinking to do but there's only a little time of my own.
But no matter what, I have to squeeze some time for my own. And to whoever that is reading this, take some time for your own too =)

Hanging on, Still.
-Licia

Try again

2010-07-28T21:16:00.002+09:00

Had a very tiring day today. Everything felt like there's no end. Especially how I felt.

But hey, I'm fine. Yea, they can break me into pieces. But heck! I'm still living. I'm still walking tall. I'm still doing what I know it's right. My life still goes on.

They may break me, but I have a God that heals me and put all the pieces back. So to the people that broke me yesterday, that is breaking me today and the people that are about to break me tomorrow, try again :) cause it's gonna be GAME OVER on the screen everytime when you try to fight a daughter of God. But hey, I wont mind you to break me AGAIN & AGAIN just to prove that my God is the Almighty God :)

Staying strong. Still.
_Alicia

PS : I love you mummy. Your hug changed everything.

Eclipse

2010-07-09T22:35:00.000+09:00

Twilight saga Eclipse..my comment is...............

WOW
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*Yesh, I'm goona continue this WOW-ing*
WOW
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*Nope...still not tired of it*
WOW
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*Alright............I'm done...............NUH-UH! NO WAY!*
WOW
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*okay...okay........I'll stop here.............right after this*
WOW
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Okays, I'll stop here for good.
But what more can I say? One word - WOW !
*I can go on with the WOW-ing the whole day! =) Just to make sure that you know =p!*

I'm in Jacob's team since New Moon was released, so before i blog anything out, just wanna say NO OFFENSE Edward's team =) It's just that everyone has their own taste. But hey! Without Edward, the story ain't gonna be this good aye? =))
Taylor Lautner's acting is getting better and better, seriously. I'm not saying cause I'm in his team, but if I have to compare New Moon with Eclipse, he is better in his acting career. In New Moon he was like....pausing and doing the jaw thingie too much and was like not very good with camera angles. But for Eclipse, I won't be bored seeing him doing the jaw thingie the whole day *Hearts <3*

Now, about the movie~~
Ohh! And before that, big big hand to the audience. They were so great! True Jacob and Edward's teams were there at the hall. I'll tell you why alright : -

There's a scene whereby it's Jacob's part. First appearance in the movie Eclipse, I meant. Me and the Jacob team went like there's no oxygen in the hall*especially the girls*. Guys wow-ed. And I went from : Hooooooowwwhhhhh Maiiiiiiiiii Gawwwwdddd -to- nearly fainting actually. Oh yeah~

In the movie, Jacob kissed Bella but Bella pushed him away and punched Jacob's face. And of course, Bella hurt her wrist. Jacob's a handsome, attractive, strong wolf in the movie. So yeah, she hurt her wrist for punching Jacob xDD!

There's one part of the movie whereby Jacob was holding Bella. And the conversation goes something like this. Not sure about the exact words. Ohh! It's shirtless Jacob in this scene.
Jacob : I know you have feelings for me.
* They talked. Can't really remember *
Jacob : I made you nervous when I'm around. *He then smiled with the MOST romantic smile and his and hers forehead touched . If I were Bella I already kissed him already!! C'mon!! This is shirtless Jacob holding you !!!*
Bella : Jacob. *Turning slightly away from Jacob*
Jacob : I promise myself that I won't kiss you again before I get your permission.

And with that....another part of the movie goes like this....
The following scene was the GLORIOUS moment of Jacob's team. Oh yeah babe~!
When Jacob knew that Bella's getting married with Edward. Oh yea, he was pissed alright. And of course, Bella went up for Jacob. *I can't REALLY remember the actual words, but something like this lah*
Jacob : GIVE ME ONE GOOD REASON TO STAY. Bella : You're important. Jacob : Not good enough. Bella : *said something*
Jacob : Still, not good enough. *He turned away*
Bella : Kiss me.
Me and Jacob team : WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
They kissed.
We clapped our hands while watching the GLORIOUS moment of Jacob. I just lurrrrveee that scene =)

Then, there's a scene when Bella and Edward got off the car, then the camera goes to Jacob, ohh and did i mention...shirtless Jacob? And with that body shape and skin colour, Jacob team in the hall : WOOOOOOOOWWWWWW.
Edward: Doesn't he have a shirt?
Me : He don't need one =)))))
Then, Bella and Edward kissed.
Edward team : wooooaaahhh. Jacob team : nooooo. booo.
But!! God is fair !!
Bella then walked to Jacob.
Jacob : Hey beautiful.
And with that scene, Jacob gave Bella a hug and his face stretched a smile, looking to Edward. Jacob team : wohoooo!!

Ohhh !! In the movie, when Edward proposed to Bella.
Edward : *Proposing* Can't really remember the words.
Jacob's team : Nooooooo. Noooooo. Nooooo.
Bella : Yes.
Edward's team : WOHOOOOOO!!! *Clapped their hands. Seriously, they clapped their hands*
Jacob's team : Noooooooooooooooo.
Me : NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. What about Jacob?? Noooooo. You love him too Bella!

Again, God is fair =)

There's more...
There's a scene whereby Bella was very cold and she was shivering in the tent, and Edward can't hug or do anything cause he's a vampire. Vampire = cold skin. Then, Jacob came in. He spoke the most attractive words.
Jacob : I'm hotter than you.
Me : Mmm-huh. Oh yeah you're way more HAWWWTER. Hehehe.
Then he hugged Bella.
The audience laughed actually when Jacob said that xD!

Then there's scenes whereby the Cullen family was chasing Victoria with their vampire speed and battles between the Cullen family and new vampires. During those scenes, I was either HANG there with my finger holding my snack near my mouth or I'm biting my finger cause I thought I'm biting my snack. Haha.

So yeah, that's some scenes from Eclipse. Really lurve it!! *thumbs up*
And if you're planning to watch Eclipse, just make sure you watch Twilight and New Moon first =) So that you know the story. Don't wait till HBO has it or buying the DVD. Go to the cinemas!! That's the BEST place you can be with the awesome sound effect and the wideeee screen =)

MUST WATCH !!

"<- Backspace" thumbs up

2010-06-10T23:13:00.003+09:00

It's been a LONG time since I had my last post.

Kinda miss blogging =)
So... here goes...

As I was reading an English article just now, I was thinking if I could write an essay like this in my English tests or exams, I'll be racing with time or I'll be having fingers cramp before I could finish the essay.
I was wanting and hoping that our school will be more high-tech and ALL the assignments or homeworks or even exams can be done my typing it out. By doing that, not only we can save time, we can also save the world by decreasing the percentage of tress being cut down just for the sake of "producing" more books *Even though I don't "Go Green!" most of the time. Sorry~*
AND it's more convenient cause we don't need to have correction tapes or correction pens OR even tearing the WHOLLEE page out and REEEEEWRITE just for the sake of tidiness.
Now won't the world be more peaceful(haha) if we press "<- Backspace" on our keyboard than using the corrections tapes & pens or wasting papers? *YES!*
A lot of schools around the world practice this system already and I wish & hope I can have a chance of this "glorious" moment. At least for my children *Yes, I will TRY to be a good mother*

In a nutshell, I'm just bored =)
*Peace.

The Changeling

2010-01-17T20:58:00.003+09:00

The Changeling

Never heard of the movie until last week. *it's a 2008 movie. sorry for being so late xD!
I remember it's during the breaks between two movies. There's always like a trailer or behind the scenes and stuffs like that to fill up the time till it's the time for the next movie. Not sure it's HBO or Star Movies.
I remember it's a behind the scenes of the movie 'The Changeling'.
they were saying how good and humourous is the director of the film - Clint Eastwood. I sorta heard of the name before but I don't remember him in his other works or accomplishments. After talking with some of the crews, they show some scenes of the movies. At first I was like....ermm..okay I know Angelina Jolie is the main character and Clint Eastwood is the director. Then, the movie's settings is back during the old days..Okay~ next~
Days later, the movie's short trailer is shown and there's a small countdown at the upper-left side of the tv screen till the next movie - The Changeling. I was like..okay la..just watch la..

After watching the movie. whooaaa~ motherhood ~!
Now, about 'The Changeling'
It's based on a true story. It's about a mother losing her child.
If you're thinking the movie's about a mother crying a lot and 80% of the movie is showing how the mother co-operating with the police, waiting for phone calls from the bad guys, then the story end with either she found her child or the child's dead. If it is, I won't be blogging this movie out. To me, it's a very unexpectable movie. not cliche AT ALL. since it's based on a true story. really have to watch it *thumbs up*

Christine Collins : " I used to tell Walter, "Never start a fight, but always finish it." I didn't start this fight... but by God, I'm going to finish it. "

Motherhood. NEVER underestimate them.

I hope 21st of January comes fast

2010-01-11T18:28:00.004+09:00

I hope my bro's here.
If he's here, maybe I won't be taking things so hard in this form 5 life.
I'm sure he'll teach me how to face every difficulty that I'm having.
My bro's a very good listener and a very good adviser.
I really like him that way.
He's the guy I'll seek for help especially in studies and advices for my future.
I really do respect this guy in my life.
Cause his support and encouragement really do push me a lot.
When my whole world's pushing me too hard, he'll be there saying :
"Hey ! You still have your big bro !"
And I YEARN for that right now.
I really miss my bro
A LOT
♥

He'll be back at KK on the 21st, but I hope he's here right now.

♥

2009-12-21T15:08:00.005+09:00

She's in ♥
Yesh, she ♥ him so much =)

忘记。努力

2009-12-04T23:08:00.005+09:00

我没说，并不代表我不介意
我笑着回答你，并不代表我不心痛
我不告诉你我哭，并不代表我想隐瞒你。。

可是。。
这全都不是你的错
我会这样，并没有觉得你很自私。。
我会这样，并没有觉得你不了解我。。
我会这样，并没有觉得你给的爱与关怀不够。。

这是我的选择
我选择把不开心的，不高兴的，不喜欢的都通通地忘记掉

你认识的我，并不太懂得忍耐
对，我也承认
所以，我选择忘记。。

你没错。。
你一点都没错。。
是我的错。。
是我有这么贪心的念头
一天比一天地渴望你更多更多的爱
虽然你给的已足够了

对不起。。
我变得这么贪心

谢谢你教我 ‘珍惜’ 与 ‘知足’
我在很努力地学习着。。

过去

2009-12-04T22:58:00.003+09:00

Thanks for everything. But hey..
我已不是你所谓的‘她’
对，你说的一点都没错 - 人是会变
我变了

我爱他
深深地爱着他。。

New Moon

2009-12-01T15:23:00.002+09:00

Yesterday went to watch New Moon with cousins - Vera and Rachel.

comments:
overall - wohooo~
middle part - o-kay. kinda getting tired and bored a lidle.
ending part - DANG !!! DANG MAN !! TRIPLE-DANG !!! WOHOOO~~

There's a scene whereby it's the first appearance of Edward in the movie in slooowww mootiioonnn
and almost ALL the girls in the hall gone nuts..like we can't even breathe
be it malay people with tudungs' or what
i heard there's a girl behind me calming down her friend : sabar ~ sabar ~
and when i saw that scene, i was like : *jaw dropped* - *deeeeppp breath* - *praying: Have mercy Lord for I have sinned*
dang he's hawttt xDD!!

BUT..
i think that Taylor's more HAWWWTTTTTT than Robert xD!
well that's my opinion lah (no offense, Robert's fans)
I prefer the body shape + colour of Taylor's skin
But pity Taylor..
Bella's meant to be with Edward

for ending part~
whoooaaaa~
Vera's sitting beside me during the movies
and when it's the ending part..

Edward : Marry me, Bella.
* Camera moves to Bella.
Vera : End
* screen gone black *
Me : NAI AH NEH LAH ???!!!

*watch it. watch it. watch it. =)

回你 03/10/2009 [5.49p.m] 的简讯

2009-10-06T23:29:00.006+09:00

“ 在你的部落格里的 ‘你’ 指的是？”

回明知故问的 ‘你’ ：

独一无二的你 ^^

PS : 公司的名字加了一个 'L' ^^

重新认识

2009-10-03T16:36:00.005+09:00

前几个月里，你介绍了你三位好朋友给我
那就是

好感.
喜欢.
爱.

其实
我早已认识了你的好朋友

有一段时期，
我给你的好朋友们很陌生的感觉
可说是彼此不认识对方了
因为，
你的好朋友们让我想起很多很多不好的回忆
一些我用尽我全力来把它们忘记的回忆

可是你的存在，
让我重新地认识它们

刚开始认识你的时候
你介绍了我 ‘好感’

‘好感’ 是位很静的朋友
宁可把一切放在心上
不想与其他人分享自己的想法
‘好感’会这样，
是因为不确定或没自信吧？

隔了一段时期，
我对我一位好朋友说了一番话
‘我不想让他知道我喜欢他！’
我的好朋友看着我。停顿了几秒钟。然后哈哈大笑。
当时的我，
还问了我的好朋友笑什么
自己回想了一下
便尴尬地哈哈大笑

在那一刻，
我认识了你的第二位好朋友 - ‘喜欢’
‘喜欢’可说是一位自私，固执但很好玩的人
我学会到 ‘喜欢’ 的自私。固执。好玩。

我自私地不会去顾你的感受
想说什么就说什么。
我当时的想法总是不必对你太好，
也不必给你任何的交代；

但却很好玩，
好玩的来却很诚恳。
我总会给你希望，
让你感受到我对你真正的感觉，
但也会让你不肯定;

当你想得到一个肯定时，
我却很固执地说我们只是朋友。

当时的你，
也受了不少的委屈
现在的你。。。还好吧？

最近的我，
认识了‘爱’
'爱' 在你三位好朋友里最有勇气的一位
'爱' 会敢敢地为对方付出
'爱' 会让对方感受到他自己真正的感受
'爱' 会想尽办法怎么让对方感受到幸福

我的过去让我需要较多时间与功夫来重新认识你的好朋友们
可能心里刻下的痕迹太深吧?
我的过去不是后悔.....
是遗憾

但是因为你
我的遗憾渐渐地变成感激
因为
有了你的关心, 诚恳与肯定
我比以前幸福

我期待...
期待你让我更明白什么是 '爱'

我 . 爱 . 你

Our conversation

2009-09-25T20:02:00.002+09:00

Sherah came to my house today.
Went to reload and bought myself a drink from Easy way.
When we reached home, we hang out outside of my house.

Got in the house to get ready for tuition.
I went upstairs to change my clothes.
Sherah was downstairs.
Then, Sherah and I had a memorable conversation xD!

Sherah : Why you're upstairs??
Me : Changing my clothes.
Sherah : Why you change your clothes??
Me : I was sweating.
Sherah : Why were you sweating??
Me : It's hot.
Sherah : Why is it hot??
Me : The weather's hot.
Sherah : Why is the weather hot??
Me : Go ask God.

*laughs*
Meaningless YET memorable xD!!

Bryon Chong

2009-09-25T19:00:00.004+09:00

He came back from KL on the 20th of September.
My parents and I went to the airport to pick our BIG GUEST. Went Centre Point before picking him up. I can say that...going to Centre that day....I gained an experience. Can't say i regret going out. Won't say I hate it. Just...a new experience and an o-kay new thingie to me xD !
So...we reached the airport around....5.30p.m?
Mom went down the car.
Dad asked me to accompany my mom.
Waiting for our BIG GUEST.
Mom check out the ariport around. She went to the second floor and I just sit there waiting for our BIG GUEST.
Then, mom came down and I went up =p !
As I was checking out the second floor, my phone rang*

Mom : Li ! He's in the car already. Come down ya. Dad say he's been waiting for us in the car
Me : Oh okay okay okay. *in a rush + can't wait*

Came down~ meet with my mom back again ~ got in the car~

Mom : Wow ! You look more skinner already ! Oh my goodness~ ! Li, do you think he look skinner? And even fairer !
Me : *speechless* no arhx~ still that yong soi ! *LOL*
Him : *laughs* chech~ no lo, Li look even more fat already !
Me : WHERE GOT?!?!
Him : Got~ *laughs*

Reached Home~
Him: MY CAR !!!!!! MY CAR !!!!!! EH???? WHERE'S MY 'P' STICKER ???
Mom : Who need the 'P' on the car when you're at KL?

~days pass by~ VERY FAST ! It's like he just landed yesterday o.O

Today~ 25th of September
Sherah came to my house this morning because we're going for tuition in the afternoon. She came in my room when I was still sleeping. That time I'm still a little of being in my 'sleep' mode.
Saw her~ checked my phone~ 1 new message ~ Sherah's message ~ look at Sherah with my == eyes.

Sherah : Can move a bit for me?
Me : *move to a side of my bed*
Sherah : *lay on my bed*

*Awakes*
*Chit-Chat while sms-ing*

Went for my shower. He's door was open that time. I saw him with his luggage*

Me : Where are you going?
Him : I'm going KL wor today.

Actually I know, it's just that...I just ask.

*Showering*
Him : *From downstairs* Li~. I'm leaving now alright.
Me : Wait wait wait. Hold on for a while. I'm showering.
Him : I'm going to be late already. *saying in a good way*
Me : Wait for a while more.
Him : I can't be late cause of you. *again~ saying in a very good way*
Me : Hold on.
Him : I'm leaving alright. Bye.
*silence*
Me : Bye.

Yeah. Had a small cough during my shower.

Around 12p.m. Had branch with Sherah. Strong winds and raining. Called him up.
Me : Hello?
Him : Yea?
Me : Is it raining there?
Him : Ya. Why?
Me : Is your flight delayed.
Him : No. I'm boarding right now. I'll get in the plane soon.
Me : Oh okay. Bye.
Him : Bye.
Me : *Waiting for him to hang up*
Him : *Waiting for me to hang up*
Me : *I hanged up*

Yea. One month before today (25th of August). I got back from KL. My family went there to send him there for his studies. That day on the airport, I cried. Not those tears rolling down my cheek. Just tears in my eyes. After getting back to KK, I didn't really contact him. As in like sms / msn / talking on the phone / webcam etc. etc. Cause that way, he'll know I miss him. Plus...I don't want to disturb him in his works or hanging out with his friends. Actually, I cried very hard during the nights staying at KL. During those nights, I can't stop thinking of he's not going to be there when I needed him at home. Can't stop thinking of him giving advice and care when I needed him to. Can't stop thinking of him sending me to places or picking me up. Can't stop thinking of he ...being the BEST BROTHER in the whole wide world.

No one. NO ONE. can / will / could / would replace my brother, Bryon Chong in my life.

如果谎言是一种伤害, 我选择沉默

2009-09-16T13:52:00.007+09:00

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手
好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;

如果谎言是一种伤害,
我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦

Updates~

2009-09-10T20:47:00.005+09:00

I can't get online these few weeks. So before updating i would like to say

*choir*
Ha~~llelujah
Ha~~llelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah ~~~

Well..next week I'll be having my exams. This exam is very important to me, actually to everyone in form 4. Cause I was told that our results for this exam will be taken to determine which class we will be going for form 5. Getting a better class in form 5 surely is very important. Cause being in the second class, we need to endure the sufferings of practical teachers ( I had 5 practical teachers this year =.='''). But what to do? Science stream and Eco stream..school, pick one ! but hey ! Eco stream still can shine like science stream ! Even brighter ! =p

YES !!! I AM READY FOR PP2 !!!!

Wow~~!!! I hope I can say that not only in my dreams ! =.=
I did prepare a tiny bit for this exam. SUPER tiny. I just did exercises for Add Maths chapter ONE, and exam papers will be testing EIGHT chapters =.=
Accounts I have tuition.
Other than that, I didn't prepare AT ALL

Tonight, I should be at accounts tuition but no transport. Actually yesterday I want to go for accounts tuition as a replacement for tonight's tuition. But I got fever =.= *HOK DAO GI* I even made plans to stay up late after tuition yesterday to do revision. But i guess I didn't sleep well due to not having enough of rest these few days. So I'm online now XD! I made plans of staying up late to study tonight.. BUT !!! I got this some kind of rash..I just know it's called 'Fung Mok' in Hakka. I've been having it lately. So I can't stand, then mom asked me to have nose blocked medicine. I have no idea why but she said nose blocked medicine is like suitable for allergy problems o.O So I feel kinda unconscious and sleepy now @@

Well I guess I'll off line now. Hopefully I'll get better, so i wont be having nose blocked medicine that made me sleepy and can't study *sobs*

Alicia ! JIA YOU !!!! *cheers* turning to *snores*

E2 Multiplication Dinner <3

2009-08-16T13:18:00.002+09:00

Yesterday was another GREAT moments that I will cherish in my life.
E2 Multiplication Dinner !!! *cheers* !!

The dinner starts of with ice breakers lead by our very own co-leader, Chi Ku Ku !! hahaXD! Lizzie =]
We had fun. And i mean LOTSA fun ! =]
We played 'Cat and Dog' as our first ice-breaker. Everyone's rushing in passing the neck tie.
I remembered that when it's Francisca turn, she just simply make rounds in front of her and just pass it to me. *laughs* !!! Everyone laughed so hard cause of that XD! hahaha ! Still laughing when I'm typing this out XD!!

Then..we moved on with our second ice-breaker. It was GREAT !!!!! =] I loved it <3
What we did is that we separate into 2 groups. In between the 2 groups, there's a big blanket (I don't know what is it actually XD! I just call it a blanket =p). Then in each group, we need to have one person sitting in front of the group. So when the blanket's goes down ( as in Lizzie and Fran let go of the blanket), the person sitting in front of the group have to say out the person's name in the opposite group. It's funny when we just hang there and our tongue have problems in speaking up their names even thou we know what we should say XD!
When it was Sheena and Hai Ling's, they said their names the same time. So it sounded like Syiling =D
I believe each of everyone of us enjoyed the ice-breakers =]

Next is we had praise reports.
Then..Fran gave the co-leaders a card for them. Some co-leaders will be going to E5 *sobs*
But of course, our loving cell leader, Fran still loves us(cell members) so much XD! she gave all of us chocos ^^ !! Thanks Frannie =]

Then..we had sharings.
GREAT sharings from Fran and also the co-leaders !
After that Fran said grace for our dinner and we went around the room to give each other hugs =]
Then..we had our dinner !!
We had pizzas~ !!! SIX LARGE PIZZAS !! LOL~
and 4 or 5 bottle of drinks.
Ice cream~ !
Since we have drinks and ice cream. Fran made us her very own floads =] Thanks again Fran ! =]

It was GREAT fun, lots of laughter, lots of joy, lots of enjoyment and most all..it was all made up of a wonderful BIG FAMILY's LOVE !

This event mark the beginning of E5. A new cell and a new leader, Cathy =] *cheers*
Not only that, this event mark a beginning of new comers joining cell groups, transformations of new comers' lives and in God's will, E6 !!! WOOHUUU !!!

Being a cell member in E2 is a new chapter in my life.
Why do I said so? It's because of my cell leader, Fran and of course the bunch of GREAT people in E2 !
Their presence of being part of my life made an impact in my lives.

They are the ones that I can lean on to when I'm down or even when I'm feeling joy.
They are the ones that support me when I'm going downhill.
They are the ones that I looked up to.
They are the ones that see me grow. No matter in my maturity level or spiritual life.
They are the ones that I call --- FAMILY !

Cell groups ain't just about people gathering in a place to fill up their weekends and just have fun. Cell groups is where we can seek God's love through the people ! It's where we come together to spend time with God ! Praising and worshiping our Lord ! It's where we can seek comfort and supports from these people ! It's a where we call each other brother and sister in Christ ! Cell group is like a home for us !

All my love to E2 and E5 !! XOXO !! <3

It's Worthy

2009-08-09T13:26:00.003+09:00

Yesterday was the BIG night !
All the sweats, sacrifices, disagreements and even arguments ALL paid off just by the smiles on the crowd's faces !

In my section, I think I can do even better cause I think it's not enough. But I love working with Joyner thou =] The way I speak infront of the crowd need to have improvements. Well, at least infront of maximum 190 people XD! I found out that I can't be myself and just go with flow when I'm in a new atmosphere. I think I will be more comfortable presenting stuffs infront of my class. But hey ! I'm still grateful that the event still went on smoothly =] GO Alicia ! Euuu Can Dwe It XD!!

We(AJK) danced on the dance floor last night. Even thou we had a problem in starting cause I think we're too rush or nervous or the postition's not right. And I think I have a major problem cause suddenly i kinda forgot the steps XD! But then as we ask the crowd joined us, I believe and I KNOW that they had a GREAT time !!

And thanks to Elvy. She sang and some us of went up and dance at the dance floor. Everyone went *ding dong* that time XD! ARGHH !! GREAT memories ! =)

After pictures and pictures...we had....pictures here and there XD! Actually LOTSA LOTSA pictures throughout the event. ESPECIALLY the form 5's =) Gonna miss them so muchieee =]

For the Best Outfit, Jamie and Chui won. Nice nice Jamie =] I KNEW that Chui's gonna win even BEFORE the event. O C'MON !! He looks good in every angle XDDD !!!! We're friendddssss =]

Yesterday night I find it hard to sleep cause my mind was like : It's finish. The event's over. With a happy and satisfy feeling of course. It's just that we put SO MUCH heart in this and it's finish after one month's time. It's just so fast that I need time to let go of it. Cause I find it hard to let go stuffs that I hold on to. *Digesting* XD!

So much part of the event keep fashing back on my mind. And so much hardwork and effort we put in to this event.
I remembered just back then we're talking about HOW to raise the BIG $$ for this event and now the event has just ended yesterday.
What more can I say to these bunch of GREAT people I worked with? Sure there are disagreements, but hey that's just the process of achieving this GREAT satisfaction I'm feeling right now.

These wonderful people(AJK) thought me a lot of stuff.
Stuffs that made each other grown up.
Stuffs that made us closer.
Stuffs that made me more matured.
Stuffs that made me understand more about responsibility.
Stuffs that even money can't buy.
Stuffs that I will treasured always.
These bunch of people...are the ones that made everything so GREAT !
It's All From You Guys
<3

It's Worthy

Cry On My Shoulder

2009-08-07T22:17:00.003+09:00

A good friend of mine, Rachelle introduce this song to me. Just by the starting of the music I already LOVE the music ! Thank you so much Rachelle ! I can say that every song that Rachelle intro to me is NICEEEEEEE ! L-O-V-E her =]
Well the song's on my blog's playlist right now. I assumed that YOUR listening to it. But if your not, HOLD ON !! What's the hurry? Wait until it buffers finish and give a chance to this song =) Ohh! and check the lyrics out =]
I LOVEEEEE this song !

Cry On My Shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

P.S. I Love You // My GREATEST 16th Birthday Present

2009-08-01T10:05:00.004+09:00

P.S. I Love You

Dang !
The movie's so darn GREAT !!!
First it's on books, now it's on movies ! *even thou it's a 2007 movie* (Hey, I'm slow but I'm still loving it !!)
Thanks Fran for introducing this movie to me !
If only my husband is Gerry !!!!!! *Ohh Gerry's the handsome Ireland husband in the movie by the way*
If I don't have a husband like that it's alright to me..at least PLEASE God you give me a son like him !! AGHHH !!!!
it's a MUST watch !!

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My Greatest 16th Birthday Present

First of all..
Sorry guys for updating SO LATE...i know~ better yet i update my blog about my birthday after a decade~
Well..even it's late I still wanna blog this out cause what you guys did for me meant A LOT to me =]

Well...where do I start?
My birthday was on the 15th of July (like i said, sorry for updating so late XD)
My birthday was on a school day..
As I'm going up the stairs at my block..
Lee Jun surprised me by saying Happy Birthday to me..*actually I saw Lee Jun hide behind the gate, but i act I didn't see her so she will surprise me XDDD!!*

then when I was going in my class..
Lee Jun walked before me and she *coughed* (quite loud) and closed the class door before i got in the class..
then I saw Francisca was like putting something back to the Body Glove plastic bag..*I saw you Frannie* XD!

Then my classmates wished me Happy Birthday =] *thanks everyone !!*
After that my sot2 jie, Fiona came to my class and gave me a piece of cake =) *thanks Fiona !*
After that..Vera came up my class..then i have proves that my friends will be doing something XD!
Then..Mandy, Frances and Lizzie came to my class and i have even MORE proves XD! *thanks Mandy for the cake !* (Yes, i gained weight on my birthday..i supposed XD!)

Then I turned around and I saw Francisca was doing something...writing something i guess..then I was thinking are they giving me a card with everyone's signature on it?

Then...before recess, when the time is right...Francisca was wanting to give me a present...
I was like shouting*excitement shout* without any reason XD!
I was covering up my eyes and face XD!
Then Sherah lied to me that they put the present inside my drawer, so I just open up my eyes looking for the present inside my drawer as i THOUGHT it would be there. *nice one Sherah ! For the first time you lied to me without blinking your eyes XD!* But then I don't know who's hand suddenly popped out and gave me the present XD!
It was a NICE NICE NICE Body Glove wallet *thanks so much so much everyone !*
So on that spot, I was putting in my money and card to my brand new precious wallet XD!

After recess..
when I was getting in my class..
I saw my bag changed...
At first i saw the word 'Body Glove' on the bag...
then I was like slowing down my steps and my mind goes like
'No no no no, it's impossible ! They can't give me a wallet then a bag to me. NO WAY ! IMPOSSIBLE !!'..
then my classmates was like LOOKING at me like their waiting to see what's my reaction...
Then I shouted like a crazy girl that never saw a bag before XD!
There's tears in my eyes but I was covering up when I leaned to the wall XD!

Then a good friend of mine, Hamster (Yes, he is named after an animal) gave me a Body Glove plastic bag with my old bag in it and he told me there's still something inside my new NICEEEEE bag.
When I zipped open my bag, all my books were placed inside my new bag in the EXACT place tidily *You know, guys can be good in tidying stuff..thanks Alex, Bui Hin and Foi! XD!*
Then when I was looking inside my bag..I saw a Baby Milo T-shirt. *I can faint on that spot..I mean c'mon !!! A wallet then a bag and again a T-shirt?????*
I know the T-shirt was from Francisca cause she told me that her sis gave it to her but she won't be wearing it and she NEVER wore it ..I wore it once thou then I gave it back to her..on my birthday she gave it to me since she know how much i LOVE it..now it is MINE...MINE I TELL YOU !!! MUAHAHAHAHHAHA *evil* XD!! *Thanks Frannie !*

After receiving those WONDERFUL presents...my mind was SET..that is NO MORE...NO MORE surprises...NO MORE presents or anything...it is OFFICIAL that there's no more...it COULDN'T be more..it CAN'T be..

Then when I was checking out my new bag..suddenly Francisca popped out a nice small box and said Happy Birthday to me...you get my feeling?? Your so excited with your new wallet, new bag, new T-shirt, cakes and a lot of people wished you Happy Birthday and there are STILL one more present for you..I mean you can't take that kind of HEAT !!..then I can't stand anymore and my tears was NEARLY rolling down my cheeks..NEARLY as in o.ooooooooo1 ml of tears away from me crying..my good friends Sherah, Lee Jun and Fran was there...I saw them was like taking a second look at me ..haha..they gave me a 2nd glance and keep quiet when they saw me almost crying XDD!! *I saw you buddies XDD!!*

And as I open the box...there's a lot a lot a lot..no wait did i mention A LOT !!! of wishes from my friends as well as my History teacher ...I smiled all the way reading each wishes written on coloured papers..*thank you SO MUCH for all your wishes !!* then I started go one by one to thank my classmates that has written wishes to me =]

Thanks once more for making my 16th birthday a GREAT one guys!

And guys..from receiving all these presents...

the GREATEST birthday present I received is that I have YOU ALL as a part of my life !

All my love to you all !! <3>

Paranoid me

2009-07-12T17:59:00.002+09:00

I feel kinda paranoid now.
I'm scared of being weak.
I'm scared of not giving all my best.
I'm scared of not making things better.
I'm scared of making mistakes.
I'm scared of facing failures.
I'm scared of letting go.
I'm scared of not being responsible.
I'm scared of being like this.

Yesterday night was really a BLAST for me ! I felt so excited and joy with God's plan for me. Just back then when I'm doing my work. I though of a lot of 'What If'
What if I lost my leadership that was in me?
What if I cannot be a good leader in things I'm in charge of?
What if I did not make a good stand for God's name?
What if I fail?
What if I give up?
What if I feel burdened every night before I sleep due to the works I'm in with?
What if I lost my connection with God due to my works?
What if I'm not ready for this?

I know this is what like Calvin said last night, that the devil always make plans to stop us from chasing our dreams. Yea Calvin's so right. I know God is always with me and guiding me. I'm just scared that.. what if I did not do what God wants me to do? I can't say I'm giving up. I'm just thinking of the sweat or sacrifices or maybe even tears that I will be going through over all of my works. I'm scared that this will stop me from being closer to God. I know that failures is part of growing up. I know that tiredness and feeling of giving up is part of process. I know it's never easy to follow Jesus, for we need to carry our cross EVERYDAY of our lives to follow Him. I know that God did not gave us a spirit of timid, but a spirit of power, love and self-discipline. YES! I will still go on ! Cause this is God's calling ! I'm not gonna give up !

C'mon wake up Alicia !!! Slap yourself !
Stop being Alicia-ed ! Now make a stand for God's name !!!

Pray for me~

Wonderfully Planned

2009-07-11T23:36:00.006+09:00

I just got back from Eklektos.
It was really an AWESOME night.
Cause a lot of things happened in one night. Actually just in hours. WONDERFULLY PLANNED of hours.
In this wonderfully planned of hours, I felt the joy of the Lord filled in EVERY cell of my body. I'm so excited that I decided to blog this out. How excited? Well I still haven't change, i just put my bag on my study table then I rush to post this out and I'm still wearing my socks XD!
So what's so excited Alicia?

THERE WILL BE E5 !!!!! WUUUHUUUUUUUU ~~!!!! Cathy will be leading the cell group and I believe that she'll be GREAAAAT =)

Secondly, this week is my second week of being in usher team. YAY! =) It feels great to serve God =)

After that...
Tonight's speaker in Eklektos is our very own 'dai gor' Calvin XD!
Well what word can I describe him?
I'll take the word PASSIONATE.
His a very very good leader and I really look up on him.
Just now, he shared about 'DREAMS'. Just by listening to the topic, WOW~.
Yeah, it was awesome for what he shared in cell group (E2) as well as in Eklektos.
When he was sharing, I felt like God is telling me something.
I felt like God is telling me : Alicia, I want to use you and I want you to make a stand for my name. WOW!!!! That joy and excitement really came up to me. PRAISE GOD !!
And after Calvin finished with his sharing, he asked whoever wants to come in front.
I stepped out and I want to talk to God. And when Calvin ask us to talk to God. I asked God:
God ! What do you want me to do for you? What do you want me to do to serve you? Tell me where is my gift so i can serve you. I need directions.

And after Eklektos Celebration, as usual there will be a short meeting with our own cell groups. When my cell leader, Fran was talking about our coming event and stuff.
I saw someone holding a cake with lighted candles.
At first, I thought it was for Samson cause today is his birthday.
And when Cathy start bringing up the cake, Francisca and us started to sing the birthday song. Then Francisca goes like this : Happy Birthday to ALICIA !!!
I was REALLY REALLY REALLY X INFINITY surprised.
THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE FOR THE SURPRISE !! ALL MY LOVE TO YOU ALL =) !!
Then we continue singing the birthday song to SAMSON and EASTER. Happy Birthday Samson !!! Happy Birthday Easter !!! =]

After that, I went up to Rachel Soh cause Fui Yin told me that she wanted to talk to me with something. And Sam is with us too. So Rachel started to tell us about Recess Revolution. You guys can check this out in www.urtherevolution.com
Sam and I was so excited about this. And in K.K, Lok Yuk's the first secondary school that Rachel start with. Excitement + Pressure on Sam and I XDD!! At that point, I told Rachel we're going to do this !! Cause I felt God answered my prayers. Cause I was asking God to show me what I can do for Him as stated above. And definitely, YES!! LOK YUK WILL BE HAVING OUR VERY OWN RECESS REVOLUTION ! AMEN !!! Pray for us(Sam and I) that this will be going smoothly =)

In few minutes back, Sam just msged me that I'm in charged in Seekers for next week. YES !! We're going to have a fellowship with our bro and sis and Christ and of cause our one and only awesome GOD =] Praise God !!

Waooooo....what I can say that, everything is happening SO FAST. In few minutes back, I was lost. I don't know what I can do to serve God. In just SECONDS, God gave me these. I just need some time to digest it XD! But, I still praise God ! He answered my prayers ! Pray for me that the leadership in me may be streghten and have a stronger faith in my walk with Jesus =]

As my bro picked me up from Eklektos, I was kinda stressed out a bit in these multi-task. There's a lot of stuff I will be busy on. Namely...

Need to think for a NEW game for MPP that will be held in 8th of August due to changing of plans. Which just left us 4 weeks. OUCH~ !!
Need to find sposorship for MPP. Currently facing a MAJOR financial problem.
Will be having a Recess Revolution in Lok Yuk next Monday. Yes, in two days time. No wait, one day =0 !!!! This is a VERY big step for me.
In charge of Seekers next meeting. (Just got it from Sam)
Trying to finish up assignments / projects. (English Oral, Moral Laporan, Moral Project, Sejarah Project OR more. ARGHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Trying to catch up what I left out in class.
Trying to catch up in tuition works.
Get ready for Seekers Telematch during the holidays on August.
Having exam in September. GOD !!!!! SAVE ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have ENOUGH of sleep o.O

Please pray for me that God will do something in whatever I will be going on with.
Lastly, once again Happy Birthday Samson ! Happy Birthday Easter !
Alright I know I'm reapeating this but THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE SURPRISE EKLEKTOS !!! =]

Thank you God ! For answering my prayers and for calling me to serve you more !

Time To Let Go && Get Ready To Put On.

2009-07-06T20:24:00.005+09:00

This year..
I've been a lot a lot of emotional experience..
As you can see in the posts...
I can experince great things today...
And the next day it can be a disaster for the things I felt great about the day before that...
Relationship...Family...Friendship...
EVERYTHING~

In all these emotional and painful experience of mine...I learn to know myself
I'm not afraid of losing...I'm just afraid of letting go

Letting go is NEVER EVER easy for anyone...
People may use 1 year...1 decade....or even the rest of their lives just to put down something that is hurtful...
People just get used to hang on something their upset about..
Due to those hurts..people often felt like not giving themselves a second chance...and a second chance to the people around them...

Before this...I was judging and not giving people around me a second chance...
I was judging that guys in the WHOLLLEEE wide world is ........hmm...let me find a more polite word...
erm.....I'll take unpleasant ...yeah that's the word...
any guy that is reading this...I was talking about YOU !! XD!! it is a 'WAS' =) No hard feelings aye guys? =]

Then I thought about a story...
There was a judge...
In the court...
The judge straight away charge the accused GUILTY...
before the defendan and persecutor even speak up their opinions and points...
Sad right?
I was the judge in the past ..i mean in jugding guys...

Yet.....
I was the one will rebuke over stuffs that is NOT FAIR
I was the one will rebuke over stuffs I DID NOT DO and DEFEND MYSELF
I was the one will rebuke seeing my friends treated UNFAIRLY

But then as I'm typing this post...
I found that I was the one that is being unfair...
and I was the one, also that rebuke over matters I,MYSELF cause..
Funny right? It's just like your pointing a gun to yourself...

sometimes human are like that..
We did something we ourselves hate it...
But we don't know...
We did something we ourselves that is hurtful...
But we don't know...
We did something we ourselves that is unworthy...
But we don't know...

So it's time Alicia...to let go
LET GO
Let go of the past hurts
Let go of the past experience
Let go of judging
Let go of gossips
Let go of being immature
Let go of being too distracted in earthly things
Let go of being incooperative
Let go of being upset over stuffs that can't change
Let go.........of your past life...

And it's time Alicia...to put on
Colossians 3: 9-14
PUT ON
Put on compassion
Put on kindness
Put on humility
Put on meekness
Put on the willing of bearing one another
Put on forgiveness
Put on love

Separate it if you can. (Friendship and Works)

2009-07-02T19:10:00.005+09:00

In exactly one month and 6 days, this year's MPP (Majlis Perpisahan Pengawas) 2009 will be going on. Before I continue............

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*ahem* XD!

As my title above, friendship and works.
I'll come up with a tiny matter. When our teachers give us assignments in groups, of cause everyone has their own opinions. And sometimes it leads to arguments. But they are all for one target --- make things better/perfect.
Now, make the picture larger. Make the picture that is a function that has....

160 prefects including some teachers / school / discipline board will be attending
meeting up the workers of the venue
coming up ideas for the function to be GREAT this year
seeking up $$ that you can't imagine is POSSIBLE

Actually, this is WAY MORE EASIER compare to MHG (Majlis Hari Guru) for this year. Thank God that almost all of the process will be taken care by the workers from the venue. But it still does not stop all of us (AJK) not to worry about the function.
Like I said, different opinions may cause arguments. I'm grateful that the people that I'm working with are some of my close friends. Grateful? Grateful in making you have to make a choice in personal and duties life? No of cause. Grateful cause most of the people I'm working with right now, are the same people I ever worked with before, in a lot and many MANY duties. Well I can't deny that MINOR TINY SMALL arguments occur. Well, I can't call it arguments. Just disagreements. Yeah, that's the word --- disagreements. But hey, what I'm truly grateful is that the people that I'm working with, can separate between friendship and works. Not TOTALLY, but yes they can. I enjoy working with people like these. I really do. And that goes to you people --- Kim, Lum, Sherah, Fran, Lee Jun and Foo. These are the awesome people that teaches me how to not take things so seriously. And these are the wonderful people that I will be VERY VERY VERY grateful in years especially in my future career. Thanks A LOT guys ! ^^ Even sometimes we have disagreements, but I know and belive that we are in one target and one target ONLY --- making this function better / PERFECT =]

Like what I learnt from Fran ...

T - together
E - everyone
A - achive
M - more

All my love to you guys ! And do pray that we can make this function succesful =)

XOXO

I flipped back the pages of my life with a smile on my face.

2009-06-28T14:47:00.006+09:00

Hours ago, I was in Facebook.
And I saw he created a test titled 'How well do you know **nt? '
Please don't get me wrong, I have no intention AT ALL to check out his profile.
Hey ! Matter of fact, I didn't check out his profile for a LONG time. Wow~ I amazed myself XD!

As I was saying, the test.
At first when I was reading the questions, I felt very..sad? No, that's not the word...unhappy. Yea, unhappy. Cause almost every question, I know exactly the answers. It hurts me when I know the answers.
I REALLY do hope that I don't know the answers. I REALLY do hope that I don't know this guy.
Cause the hurts that I felt, it's the past hurts that I once tried so hard to get over it. Cause the hurts that I cried out so much, is the past tears that I once tried so hard to hold back my tears. Cause the hurts that I, myself bring it up, is one of my most regretful decision I made in my life.
As every question only has one answer in the test, so the other options are wrong. What makes me more unhappy is that I even know which situations or questions he will ask for each OPTIONS. SIGH !!

But hey, as I'm typing this. I found out that I'm not unhappy. It's REGRET.
I believe everyone have their own regrets in the options or choices we made in our lives. But we can't let the regrets make us weak and scared in making decisions of our lives.
From what I've been through, I learn that the harder I force myself to let go of my past, the harder it takes to make it go away. I was using all my energy and time to make myself busy, just to forget the memories or the past that I shared with him. But it's still there. I was running from this awful and hurtful thing.
You see, RUNNING was not my type. I was the one that advice my friends to FACE the problems of their lives. And now one of my friend is the one that gave back me that advice. Thanks Aaron, I needed that =) But, of cause Lolo lads and Bobo gang was there ALL THE TIME =) Love you guys! =] All my love also to E2 and Eklektos. You guys are the impact of my life to form this new and happy Alicia ! ^^
With these AWESOME and WONDERFUL people in my life, I started to accept that I REGRET WITH THE CHOICE I MADE and IT'S MY PAST.

Hey **nt, I'm happy without you.

* I flipped back the pages of my my life. But this time, I smiled while reading it.

I Like You ?

2009-06-26T14:53:00.003+09:00

It's kinda funny when I thought back that
your the FIRST guy that made me shed my tears for guys.
And just the day before yesterday, you actually did it again.

You were the FIRST guy that made me understand that it's never easy to find a person that
I love so much, and the person too, love me so much.
Again, day before yesterday, you actually did it again.

I don't know why that I don't dare to speak out I do have feelings for you. Maybe I'm scared that if I said it out, my feelings to you may be stronger and stronger.

Or....

Maybe I'm just used to your presence in my life?

But...

Why will I feel unpleasant when I know that the person you love, is not me?

I.....Like.....You?
I don't know.

I'm so confused with my feelings.

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!

To You, Grown Up Best Friend

2009-06-24T16:45:00.005+09:00

Best Friend, this year i can see that you truly is growing. Last time, when people give advice about what type of person are you, you'll just listen and just change to someone that they want you to be. That includes me. Right here, sorry for the past. Now, you'll strike back instead of just listening =) Still remember last year? You always use the word 'weak' to describe yourself. You put truly 100% in relationships and friendships. And when you get in arguments, you'll break down and cry. And just conclude your day with tears and sadness. But this year, you've grown up to not take things so seriously. Maybe you've been through a lot of situations that you or anybody (except God) can take control of it, so you became mature, especially in your spiritual life. From the bottom of my heart, I'm truly happy for you =) Best Friend, you truly changed and became so matured this year. Don't get me wrong, it's not bad. It's just that people around you, may not get used to it and need time to accept who you are. I need the time to accept that you became a big girl and is so independent with God beside you =) And because you grown up, sometimes I do feel offended in the 'grown up' you. And I do feel uncomfortable being with you but NOT BECAUSE OF THE GROWN UP YOU, is because the UN-GROWN UP ME. Don't change. Stand strong in who you are =) Well, it's time for me to grow up too. Grow up to be mature in accepting MY GROWN UP BEST FRIEND =)

All my love to you, best friend.

XOXO

羅志祥 - 防盜鎖

說穿了不是什麼大事情
說穿了不過自己去看電影
說穿了只是睡醒看不到你
你放心離去我不要緊

為什麼莫名有種矛盾的情緒
給了你祝福又盼望你回心轉意
他給的幸福你從笑容就能說明
我還憑什麼關心怎麼你不抗拒

感情沒有防盜鎖
愛走不到盡頭
不後悔付出過
各自回家的路試著不再難過
變得成熟
是我能安慰自己唯一的收穫
就離開我別回過頭不要用從前看以後

我猜是我的錯
愛怎麼被偷走
那只是個感受
如果離開是愛你最後的承諾
多年以後
偶爾記得那瘋狂不成熟的我
不說穿了不要結果
不偽裝了我的難過

Alicia-ed and Alicia

2009-06-21T12:11:00.004+09:00

Last week and the week before this

I've been thinking a lot about who I was and who am I

As i get into form 4
A LOT of changes that I need to get used to it
A LOT of stuffs I need to surrender back to God

A LOT of big decisions I need to make

A LOT of works or assignments that I need to make it PERFECT
A LOT of pressure I got from the people around me

Through ALL of these stuffs, I started to know myself more
Is it a good thing? Or is it bad?
Good as in i FINALLY know what kind of person am i?
Bad as in I need to face where is my weakness and stuffs that I'm not good enough?

So who is Alicia-ed? Some are from my own view and some, my closest friends' :

Does not have an intimate relationship with God

A very comparative and competitive person

DOES NOT like losing

Very rush in making decisions YET very stubborn in the choice she made

Takes risks YET does not dream big

Take relationships that she had into a HIGHER level in her life

Over open-minded..WAYYYY over

Will not be the first to take a stand in situations

Does not make Plan B or Plan C in her life. Solve it only when there is problems but it's too late

Do not let the past conquer her life

Being too straight-forward in her opinion. In this, she may offended people's feeling and make the situation more worst

What about Alicia? Same, opinions from my own view and my closest friends' view :

Closer to God

Scared to make any wrong decisions (Play safe / Scared in taking risks)

She's not afraid of losing but is afraid of letting go

Easily get offended by words

STRONGLY believes that trust has a limit

Try her best to make people around her like who she is

Take people's opinion about her too seriously

Not firm enough in her choice

Care too much in small things AND neglected big things

Too complicated thinking

Does not like the feeling of getting left out

Likes to take control in things in her life

Out of her comfort zone

Past does conquer SOME parts of her life

When get offended, rather to keep silent

Learn from the choices she made

When I see the changes in me, I found that God truly is fair. Almost every weakness that Alicia-ed have, grew and became Alicia's strength ; Almost every strength that Alicia-ed have, God turned it to a minimum stage and put it into Alicia's character.

Sometimes, when we change, we do not realize it. Fran let me understand that sometimes only the people outside know we've change. Of course, changes may be good or bad.

And we also do not know that the changes we had may offended people's feelings or it gives joy to the people around us. But, no one is perfect. And every person has their own weakness and strength.

So, yesterday I've learn to accept people's changes ( even sometimes it may offended me ), just like I've learn to accept the changes in me.

Last,

Heavenly Dad, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY !

God's plan

2009-06-13T15:29:00.000+09:00

Today I wont be going to Eklektos Celebration(EC) and E2 =(
Cause I'm having a dinner with my family which my dad say I MUST GO. Sad.
I feel down when i thought of it. Cause Eklektos and E2 is truly a very important part of my life. Eklektos and E2 is the place where burdens, troubles, unhappiness -STOP- for that precious 6 hours. And for this week, breakthrough may happen cause last week Kyrugma was so packed ! And we all are hoping that more people will come to Eklektos today. And I can't see it myself. Plus, Bro. Vincent will be speaking today. ARGHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO GO TO EKLEKTOS AND E2 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But kinda think of it, I ow my bro once. I didn't have dinner with my family on my bro's birthday cause I went to Eklektos and E2. And this August he'll be leaving to study at KL. Yeah, OUCH ! SOWRIEEEE~

Sometimes i doubt that I'm part of this AWESOME cell group and Celebration, cause I come from a different background in Christianity. Yea, I'm not a pure Bascel. It's not that i don't feel welcome or what, *NOT AT ALL* the people are SO AWESOME! And I feel GREAT being around them ! I did comfront this to my cell leader and she did tell me that it's not a problem. Well, I'm kinda confused in what i should do. But, I know and I believe that God will do something about it =)

I still hope that today there will be an AWESOME breakthrough. All my love to Eklektos and E2 ! =)

God's blessing from heaven to Eklektos !

2009-06-07T21:27:00.000+09:00

Yesterday night, 210 people filled Kyrugma Love hall. Praise the Lord !! For He answered our(Eklektos) prayers ! Truly a BREAKTHROUGH ! =)

The speaker is Ps. Jay Koopman which I'm SO AMAZED of what his been through. His story truly touched us. Almost all of my friends' eyes were soaked with tears of what his been through. Even thou I know a summary of what his been through, tears still come when he took up the mic and share his testimony. I love the way he preach cause he'll always call us back when we're destracted. * Gosh ! I love the way he moves his fingers asking us to look at him* YES PASTOR JAY ! I'M WILLING TO STARE AT YOU THE WHOLE NIGHT ! Hey, his cute what? * haha~ BUT, I still listen what's his trying to preach and I'm truly touched. I was SO AMAZED till I can't get in my sleep cause his testimony goes through my mind again and again. Cause I never saw or heard a person been through something like that. Truly, just like what Pastor Jay said, I thought it only happen in movies.

After the ushers got the new comers name, people can ask for prayers from ushers or any leaders. Tim, Winson and I prayed together =) Thanks Tim ! =) I prayed for Sherah too =)

This is truly God's blessing from heaven to Eklektos for having Pastor Jay Koopman to preach at Eklektos ! Praise the Lord ! I hope that the first fire that burn in Eklektos will be fired up again ! With God's blessings to all the AWESOME leaders, I believe that Eklektos will grow as a TEAM and as a FAMILY of God ! =)

HEARTS to EKLEKTOS ! <3

E2 ROCKS !!!

2009-06-01T13:55:00.000+09:00

Yesterday night, we had our first cell group (E2) outing at my house. Our cell group leader is our one and only FRANCISCA LO ! A good friend of mine and a AWESOME leader. We met some new friends and some other members from other cell group --- E1 and E3. Before we had our dinner, Calvin start up with an opening prayer and said grace. After we had our dinner, we gather in a big circle to introduce one another. After knowing our brothers and sisters in Christ, we had games lead by Fran. Each games we learn a valuable message to build up this precious team and also family of Christ. After games, we finish up with a closing prayer.

Here's some pics throughout the outing : -

Taking a break after finish dinner

Games (Group discussion)

Popping balloons time.. RUNNNNNNNNNNN !!!!!!!!

Run baby Run~ Don't ever look back ~

Erica and Mandy =)

Max ...erm...being himself XD !!

Games ( Trust Walk)

Throughout this outing, I had lots of fun and I'm very thankful for being part of E2. Million thanks to Fran and Calvin for not giving up on us and building our spirit high ! E2 is a place where I can find satisfaction and also where I can lean on when I'm down. The people in E2 and also in Eklektos are AWESOME !!! Thanks for being part of my life people =)

PS: Hope you guys like the food ! =)

Have a date with Ps. Jay Koopman XD!

2009-05-28T18:31:00.000+09:00

Time: 7.30 PM
Date: 6th June 2009 (Sat)
Venue: Love Hall,Kyrugma House (BCCM,Likas)
People: For everyone under the sun!
Speaker : Ps. Jay Koopman

A very sought after pastor and communicator in Asia!
His testimony had changed many people's lives, he is passionate about young people!!
*For more information,please log on to http://www.eklektosyouth.blogspot.com
See you there !!

- No More -

2009-05-27T22:01:00.001+09:00

It's you who came into my life and leave it
誰還記得是誰先說永遠的愛我
And my biggest fault is to let you do that
以前的一句話是我們以後的傷口

Even i shed a tear for you.
I need NO MORE of your concern
I need NO MORE of your pity
I need NO MORE of your comfort
I need NO MORE to tell you what's going on MY LIFE
Cause THIS IS MY LIFE

Thank You

Cause you're ONCE mine and I learn a lot of things from YOU

I've learn to love and to be loved

I've learn to show unlimited care and concern to a person

I've learn to be more patient

I've learn to be mature in facing problems or trials in relationships

I've learn to hope and taking such a big risk in relationships

And....

I've learn that letting go is never easy
I've learn to be strong cause I'm not afraid to lose you
I've learn that trusting has a limit
I've learn that love is not as simple as 'I LOVE YOU'
I've learn that it's better to have no promises AT ALL in a relationship
I've learn that love is truly B.L.I.N.D
I've learn that relying a person is one of the ways to make one's life MISERABLE

After you and I been through. It will remain and buried as memories for me. Always will ONLY be memories.

誰還記得....是誰先說永遠的愛我

2009-05-18T21:53:00.000+09:00

記得　 - 張惠妹

誰還記得　是誰先說永遠的愛我
以前的一句話　是我們以後的傷口
過了太久　沒人記得當初那些溫柔
我和你手牽手　說要一起走到最後

我們都忘了　這條路走了多久
心中是清楚的　有一天　有一天都會停的
讓時間說真話　雖然我也害怕
在天黑了以後　我們都不知道會不會有以後

誰還記得　是誰先說永遠的愛我
以前的一句話　是我們以後的傷口
過了太久　沒人記得當初那些溫柔
我和你手牽手　說要一起走到最後

我們都累了　卻沒辦法往回走
兩顆心都迷惑　怎麼說　怎麼說都沒有救
親愛的為什麼　也許你也不懂
兩個相愛的人　等對方先說想分開的理由

誰還記得愛情開始變化的時候
我和你的眼中　看見了不同的天空
走的太遠　終於走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我　要有兩個相反的夢

This song really touches me. Heard it at Kim's car when going to Karamunsing that day. Will post soon about this~ *sigh*

--- Alicia.. Be Strong ---

Stress-FULL week

2009-05-15T22:52:00.000+09:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!

S.T.R.E.S.S is written EVERYWHERE of my life !! It fill up my relaxing time, my meal time, my sleep time and worst my devotion time! I feel there's a distance between me and God when I'm facing ALL these trials and it made me weaker and weaker day by day. *sigh* But I'm on the way of building back my faith and I HOPE that everything will go fine. HOPE in the Lord !!!

Army of God

2009-04-26T12:33:00.000+09:00

Ephesians 6 : 10-17

" Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day and having done all to stand. Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness. And having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace. Above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked ones. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. "

Army of God ! Attack !! =P

Life Chapters

Failure

Offering

Show up

I know every mile, will be worth my while

that's when I look at You

Inspiration

Through Christ

Push the tempo!

Little things in life

Taught and showed me something new by a brilliant girl

New York

God, You did it again :)

When you fall, fall gracefully. Fall forward.

Hang in there. Just hang in there.

I'll be lying if I never thought of giving up

I love being busy, but I miss being lazy as well. I don't even have time to take driving lessons O.O And i wanna drive...SO BADLY! Fuuuuuhhhhh, breath

Ugly war

can't wait

Breath. Just breath.

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Gawd i miss ya blogspot

tumblr

Getting Big Dad's permission

no thank you

I sayang my bro

*screams* part 2

We Have Two Choices

Butterfly kisses

*screams*

awkward-me-not

Pasent

Created memories

Tip : Back off

Excited

wow =)

I am STILL doing fine

Twilight Zone - What happens when you can't remember the name of that vegetable on your plate? =O

Contented with little, yet wishing for more.

Wedding Ring

Dad JUST smiled. Hmmmm...

Decisions. Decisions.

Too Cute to be True

$86, 400

SALUTE !

Each Tear

Steady kauuuu. Tin dit loiiii.

FB. Formspring. Thanks and Sorry.

Apa macam?

Study Group

加油

BGR

Me BEHR-RUA-THA's back

In need of DISTRACTIONS

Kept in heart

Gossip

Have You Ever Been In Love

Have all the "victory" you want

My Own Time

Try again

Eclipse

"<- Backspace" *thumbs up*

The Changeling

I hope 21st of January comes fast

♥

忘记 。 努力

过去

New Moon

回你 03/10/2009 [5.49p.m] 的简讯

重新认识

Our conversation

Bryon Chong

如果谎言是一种伤害, 我选择沉默

Updates~

E2 Multiplication Dinner <3

It's Worthy

Cry On My Shoulder

P.S. I Love You // My GREATEST 16th Birthday Present

Paranoid me

Wonderfully Planned

screams part 2

screams

"<- Backspace" thumbs up

忘记。努力

誰還記得....是誰先說永遠的愛我

記得　 - 張惠妹